I AMA Live {Updated x4}

I am a Failed Mass Shooter – Ask Me Anything. -Reddit

Update: I consider it mostly a success. More questions than I expected, most of which are in the Casual version. Didn’t really intend for it to start on 11/11, just kind of worked out that way. Of course the 11/13 Paris attacks made all that more interesting {and quiet}, as did the Obama administration’s attempts to blame the attacks on Snowden {as well as encryption; the attackers used unencrypted texts to communicate} and to compare him {and whistleblower Thomas Drake} to traitors on the one hand and Navy Yard shooter Aaron Alexis on the other. You really should read the Casual IAMA and try to imagine that silent jackhammer {really loud siren} in your head. Then ask yourself who really has motive, the means, and the opportunity to do that. Hacking people is to a large extent an ignored reality, whether it’s happening on an individual or group level. Both do.


Anthropology Biology Economics History Political Science Psychology Sociology

Another Update: Also see this uncomfortable video where Tyrone Dew asks former CIA/NSA chief and Chertoff Group co-founder Michael Hayden about nonlethal weapons, Aaron Alexis and Myron May. It seems preposterous, given their use on ousted Honduran President Manuel Zelaya and others, that Hayden doesn’t know more than he lets on.


Compare Hayden’s response with this:

2003-2004 Phase I Summary Report, US Navy contract for MEDUSA nonlethal weapon:


The system will: be portable, require low power, have a controllable radius of coverage, be able to switch from crowd to individual coverage, cause a temporarily incapacitating effect, have a low probability of fatality or permanent injury, cause no damage to property, and have a low probability of affecting friendly personnel.

Casual IAMA URL: reddit.com/r/casualiama/

Controversial IAMA URL :https://www.reddit.com/r/

A Brief Domestic and Global Terror Timeline {Updated}

“My love is vengeance. That’s never free.”

1950s: Fort Detrick CIA and US Army chemist Frank Olson takes part in a experiments conducted in the UK by British military intelligence. The experiments involve a deadly nerve gas and are used on a handful of British soldiers. There are a few deaths.

Olson, clearly disturbed by how the tests were conducted, reports his doubts to a psychiatrist. Upon his return to the US, Sidney Gottlieb calls a private meeting in a cabin including Olson and several others involved in MKULTRA research. There, most everyone present drinks liquor from a flask. Immediately after drinking it, Gottlieb tells everyone that the liquor is laced with LSD. Years later during a court hearing, it is revealed that Olson may have been given a separate flask from someone else.

The result is that Olson thinks he is losing his mind. He goes to NYC to see a CIA psychiatrist. There, he either jumped from his hotel room window or was more likely pushed. Within the pushed theory, it is believed that OSS/CIA/FBI/FBN officer/agent George Hunter White and French-born OSS/CIA ‘Pierre Lafitte’ were responsible.

Still the 1950s: Primarily as a result of Olson’s death, an agreement between the Department of Justice and the CIA is created assuring CIA that there will be no prosecutions for breaking the law, including murder and drug smuggling, when the operations include classified methods or sources. Virtually all of CIA’s covert operations include classified methods and sources, so it is essentially carte blanche and largely nullifies the restraints set forth in CIA’s charter regarding domestic covert operations.

1950-1960s: Ted Kaczynski–a domestic terrorist who will be later known as the Unabomber, “Whitey” Bulger who is one of the most notorious gangsters in US history, and Lois Lang–a ‘bad lady’ who wound up shooting a CIA money man named Nick Deak, among many others, took part in drug and hypnosis experiments conducted by the CIA.

1960s: The Joint Chiefs of Staff draft an operation they call NORTHWOODS. In it, they suggest blowing up a plane full of American college students and framing Cuba in order to drum up support for an invasion of the country. The plan also included other operations intended to be carried out by “others” {this is a euphemism for CIA} such as blowing up ships. Both of these events are eerily similar to the USS Cole bombing and 9/11 itself.

1970s-1980s: The Soviet Union controls a significant portion of the world’s heroin trade by occupying Afghanistan.

1979: Zbigniew Brzezinski, the Carter administration’s National Security Advisor, starts supplying Afghanistan and Pakistan with text books for children through USAID and the CIA. The annual budget is around $35million.

1984: The Reagan administration increases the budget for radicalizing children in Afghanistan and Pakistan to around $350million. The CIA also has men like Graham Fuller training and radicalizing people in Afghanistan in order to fight the USSR.

Mid- to Late-1990s until 2004: Graham Fuller’s daughter, Samantha, is married to Ruslan “Uncle Ruslan” Tsarnaev who lived with Graham for a year in Maryland.

4 September 2001: Robert J. Mueller takes over as director of FBI from Louis Freeh.

11 September 2001: The 9/11 attacks occur.

12 October 2001: The latest in a string of anthrax-laced letters winds up at NBC studios in Rockefeller Center in Manhattan. I discovered this because at lunch my co-workers and I were dining al fresco and saw Tom Brokaw with a few interns. This was at a place I think was then called Piatti Pronti, in the below-street-level area east of the Societe Generale building {formerly known as the McGraw Hill building}. I heard Brokaw trying to calm the interns and looked up the news on my mobile.

Eventually the FBI, despite the urging of several people in the White House and apparently the CIA to blame Al Qaeda or Iraq for the letters, fingers Fort Detrick CIA and US Army biological weapon expert Bruce Ivins for the letters. Ivins had apparently, prior to 9/11, tried to warn people about the possibility of such attacks by terrorists and not found the response from the government to be adequate. The letters depict Ivins as mimicking a serial killer, using codes. Alternative theories suggest that even Ivins was framed, probably by CIA itself.

15 April 2013: The Boston Marathon bombings occur. The suspects are Dzhokhar and Tamerlan Tsarnaev, nephews of Ruslan.

October 2014: While awaiting the Canadian Immigration and Review Board’s decision on allowing Matt DeHart to stay in Canada, Michael Zehaf-Bibeau, the 32-year old son of Susan Bibeau, a deputy chair person on that very board, was killed after allegedly shooting a Canadian soldier. The DeHart’s request for sanctuary in Canada due to concern over Matt having seen documents showing FBI investigated CIA regarding the anthrax attacks, despite all the evidence and claims by Matt of having been drugged and tortured by FBI, is denied. He currently faces charges was forced into a plea deal due to facing up to 40 years and a $1/2 million fine related to sexting with a minor in Tennessee.


COIN-Cidence #5,067 – Pictured, early 1980s: A future FBI agent stationed in Tennesssee, me, and a bunch of other ‘Patriots.’


Colin Freeze and Les Perreaux, “Suspected killer in Ottowa shootings had religious awakening,” Globe and Mail, 22 October 2014:


F. William Engdahl, “Graham Fuller, Uncle Raslan, the CIA and the Boston Bombings,” Veterans Today, 20 May 2013:


H.P. Albarelli, A Terrible Mistake: The Murder of Frank Olson and the CIA’s Secret Cold War Experiments, 2010.

Jeff Kaye and H.P. Albarelli, “Cries From the Past: Torture’s Ugly Echoes,” TruthOut, 23 May 2010:


James Bamford, “Pentagon Proposed Pretexts for Cuba Invasion in 1962,” National Security Archive, 30 April 2001:


Joe Stephens and David B. Ottoway, “From U.S., the ABC’s of Jihad,” Washington Post, 23 March 2002:


Max Rivlin-Nadler, “Ex-CIA [Officer] Denies Rumors of Ties to Ruslan Tsarnaev,” Gawker, 27 April 2013:


Robbie Martin, “Alleged CIA Involvement in 2001 Anthrax Attacks,” Media Roots, 26 October 2015:


Name unrecalled, a documentary on Olson and the UK nerve gas experiments.

More at the CIA Radicalization tab.

And a fun and ironic quote from CIA’s World Factbook at the bottom of the Afghanistan entry:

world’s largest producer of opium; poppy cultivation increased 7 percent, to a record 211,000 hectares in 2014 from 198,000 hectares in 2013 while eradication dropped sharply; relatively low opium yields due to poor weather kept potential opium production—6,300 metric tons—below the record set in 2007; the Taliban and other antigovernment groups participate in and profit from the opiate trade, which is a key source of revenue for the Taliban inside Afghanistan; widespread corruption and instability impede counterdrug efforts; most of the heroin consumed in Europe and Eurasia is derived from Afghan opium; Afghanistan is also struggling to respond to a burgeoning domestic opiate addiction problem; vulnerable to drug money laundering through informal financial networks; illicit cultivation of cannabis and regional source of hashish

BBD: COIN-Cidence {Updated}

“This is a rich man’s war and I don’t want any part of it.”
—Some poor sod, unfortunate enough to be alive when the War Between the States broke out, but smart enough to at least see part of the big picture, when writing to a friend


Just a list of the bizarre places/times I’ve sometimes found myself. Need to remind people again, I had nothing to do with any of these things beyond what is stated here, was merely used as scapegoat where applicable.

Context is everything. This is why when something else happens it becomes very difficult to determine what is normal life and what is covert action. That is at least in part the idea, to turn a target like myself against myself psychologically.

In the interests of brevity and simplicity, I’m not linking up any of this or including backup, evidence, etc. It’s all here in other posts, in Wicked Game, or in my possession.

1989/1990: Worked as a temp. Wound up working at Philip Morris on the shareholders meeting multimedia preparation team not long before tobacco hearings wound up causing a large shift in the board of directors.

1997/1998: The company I worked for, Professional Service Industries, Inc. {PSI} was bought by Mitt Romney’s Bain Capital. Our office was closed soon after as the main project wound down.

Late September/Early October 2001: Saw suspicious characters walking about near Gracie Mansion. Reported it and saw the response to my call.

12 October 2001: Saw Tom Brokaw at lunch at midtown restaurant with some interns. Saw he was trying to reassure them. Checked the web, saw that the Amerithrax attack on NBC had just occurred. An attempt to blame these attacks on Al Qaeda and/or Iraq will ensue. FBI director Mueller, who only took over a week before 9/11, resisted the pressure to rush to judgement by CIA and various neocons in the Bush White House. It will be determined later that it was most likely the work of Bruce Ivins, who in some ways has several uncanny similarities to Frank Olson. Olson, who worked for the US Army and CIA was allegedly murdered in the 1950s because he felt guilty about being involved as an observer in a deadly nerve gas test conducted by MI6. Olson became unstable and either jumped or was thrown out of a hotel window. Ivins, like Olson, worked at Fort Detrick and became unstable. The motive for the attacks is alleged to have been Ivins paranoia that terrorists would conduct anthrax attacks and the US was unprepared for it.

Matt Dehart claims he had evidence in the form of electronic documents from an unknown member of the hacker collective Anonymous that FBI was investigating CIA for attempting to place responsibility for the Amerithrax attacks on others. Matt’s trial is scheduled to begin on 8 December, though the Department of Justice is doing so via other charges. Matt also says he was drugged and tortured while in Canada seeking asylum. Note that just before the board determining his status made their decision, the son of one board member “went postal.”

2003/2004: A man who worked for a private defense and intelligence firm founded in 1917, Booz Allen Hamilton, was in my social circle for a time. His wife worked at the UN.

2003: Worked on a project in Helmsley Building for owner/landlord where one partner of owner company, Adam Hockfelder, wound up going to prison for fraud. My work was exclusively for the other partner, Richard N. Kalikow. Wound up getting myself removed from that project when it was clear there was shifting of money around between projects that had different investors. However, the amounts were less than 7 figures from what I could tell. Knew nothing of Hockfelder’s doings until it made the news.

2007-2008: Worked on a very fictional graphic novel script based partially on investigative reporter Jeremy Scahill’s work on Blackwater and more generally privatization including the fire department. Didn’t discover until much later that Scahill and my partner and I were neighbors. Also later discovered that yet another Booz Allen Hamilton employee lived in my condo building.

13 November 2008: One of my firm’s clients, John Paulson {not to be confused with Hank} of Paulson & Co., testified before Congress regarding the hedge fund hearings and bailouts.

September to November 2009: Worked on the so-called Ground Zero Mosque, or Cordoba House. More recently discovered that it had FBI/CIA backing and was likely staged as a wedge issue for the 2008 and 2010 elections.

October 2009: After writing and publishing what was to be the first of very fictional a mini-series comic in which the antagonist was an Ayn Rand follower type, my local comic book store was robbed. On top of the trashed mess the robbers left on the counter was a copy of my book. The owners wondered if I weren’t therefore somehow involved.

14 January 2010: My boss’ PC was hit with a worm and various trojans originating from Ford Motor Co. in Deerborn, Michigan. It is so bad that the hard drive is unusable. This follows closely on the heels of the alleged Chinese hacks of Fortune 500 companies including Google where my then partner worked. Note that before moving to operations, I was the IT manager so the attack, even though my boss thinks he clicked on a phony Classmates link, reflects badly on me.

15 January 2010?: My firm was asked by building management to expedite certain areas of the building for a building wide project. In one of these spaces the People’s Bank of China was the tenant. My co-worker and I were ushered out by several BoC employees who were moving us out in tandem.

29 January 2010: Completely fed up with the incessant and ever increasing psychological harassment–and after asking the government to put an end to it–I donated money to Wikileaks in protest. This was before Private Manning’s arrest but after the point where the government claims she began shopping documents around. I was of course completely oblivious to all of that until it made the news.

8 January 2011: When in Minneapolis doing a Google search to see if there were any movies a friend and I could go to, Google incorrectly listed my location as Arizona. This is the day Jared Lee Loughner shot 19 people.

Fall 2012: Went to a party and hit it off with a 26 year old young man whose name turned out to be James {Something other than Eagan} Holmes. Next time I saw him, he was “busy” with a looks-like-Eff-Bee-Eye guy who left the party soon after. This is eerily similar to events that lead to my one and only suicide attempt back in the 80s. The same day, a 62 year old man fell in love with me.

February-September 2013: Worked as a security guard one day a week at a plant owned by Koch Industries. This was surprising because I had, in the hopes of escaping the harassment I had endured for months at that point, run a PSYOP against Koch lobbyists in 2010 pretending that I had something to do with Hockfelder’s prosecution {again, I did not and the harassment continued}. Soon after putting in my notice, a problem at the plant lead me to think it was sabotage. More recently when I learned more about it, it seemed likely that STUXNET was used. This was during one of the allegedly Koch-engineered government shutdowns.

May 2014: When meeting with a woman who is to appear in court for a sanity/competency hearing to determine if she is to become a ward for the state {think of it as a permanent private prison sentence without the cell but all the subcontractors taking her disability income}, the man who is driving her, me, and one other man explains that he was present at the Bundy Ranch standoff. Senator Reid referred to them as domestic terrorists.

As you can see, there’s a pattern of scapegoating there. This has grown, via the destruction of my life and other events and forms of harassment, to an attempt to drive me to violence of some kind. Just as the government and private think tanks try to label all sorts of minorities as terrorists, they hoped to add LGBT to the list. Our system is that mercenary. What you see here, in Wicked Game, and  on Twitter, etc. is me fighting back. Simple as that.


Covert Hellscape Exposed

For people who are new here, you’ll find much of my bio drafted over here. Short version is some people tried to harass me into doing violence against others or myself. Why is a bit more complicated, that’s why I wrote most of a book about it. Suffice it to say as far as I know there is no other person making such a claim that explains it in such a way as to leave out torture chambers, Satanism, UFOs, and other MONARCH style stuff you may have heard about elsewhere.

Think of this as the behind-the-scenes audio commentary on a DVD or Blue-Ray. You can read the original here, if you like first. The entire thing is quoted below with explanations intermingled.

(Note: though this is largely fiction, it illustrates how the combination of being drugged with something with effects similar to mefloquine in combination with some other things, social engineering that destroys the semblance of one’s life, and synthetic telepathy can be used in combination as I’ve said they are. Therefore I’m posting it here. Also, apologies for borrowing some of the style–and likely mangling it. Grab inspiration where I can. It’s what we mimics do best).

As it turned out, mefloquine aka Lariam, used by the Navy and CIA at GITMO on detainees at five times the normal dosage, may not be the best candidate for whatever drugs are used to create those mass shooters. * Also, I probably should have used the less-off-putting voice-to-skull over “synthetic telepathy” which most people would find silly sounding.


I frequently, in 2011 and 2012 or so, said to myself, “If they ever do whatever that inflict-pain-at-range thing they do is for an extended period of time, I will definitely kill myself.” The typical duration in Minneapolis had been about 35-45 minutes.

{And it is very uncomfortable. Think of Myron May and Aaron Alexis.}

However, on 15 August 2012, they did just that. 24 hours straight. That is why I wrote this Wicked Game chapter the way that I did, or at least one of the reasons. And though I might think it needs re-writing, I’ve left it as a reminder of that horrible day, one of the worst days of my life.

Hence the title of the piece being quoted here. You’ll note that I wrote it two weeks later.

“Most times you can’t hear ’em talk. Other times you can.”
Bob Seger

Imagine you are broken.

It wasn’t always so. Not long ago you were on top of things. You were making advances. You had something to contribute. Your were on your way to making a name for yourself. You were somebody.

You can’t quite recall when it all changed. When you woke up somewhere else. When you woke up one morning and found yourself in Hell.

Though I have not researched it thoroughly by any means, one paper I did find suggests that roughly 10% of the human population is resistant to hypnosis. Especially important to note, because subliminal suggestion and PSYOP designed to alter behavior work quite similarly, is why the author believed this to be the case. These 10%, he wrote, have a short attention span and tend to hold very strong beliefs. In other words, the hypnotists tried to change their minds and failed.

But what if, instead of trying the change their opinions, they instead tried to exploit them, expand them…make them more firmly held to the point the person is radicalized? I submit that this could and probably does work. They are more inclined to listen to beliefs that they already hold. It is merely necessary to alert them to the idea that others disagree and fill their heads with nightmare scenarios as to why those other people are both wrong and dangerous to society.

In other words, this stuff can work on almost anyone. You can figure out which categories a person falls into and how to work them based on what we already know to be true: NSA and other agencies collect every phone call, text, email, web search and multiple other electronic transactions and signals and private companies like Booz Allen Hamilton have access to it. In fact, Snowden made it quite clear, he could access anyone’s data from his desk in Hawaii at BAH.

In the quote above we set the norm and suggest there’s been a change. Let’s try to figure out how this occurred.

You vaguely recall starting to stare at phone numbers. License plates. Graffiti. Somewhere along the line, those things came to hold more meaning than the now nearly incomprehensible texts you have pored over for years.

You bounce between laughing hysterically at what Jung referred to as synchronicity, strange coincidences that now pervade your entire life… Sometimes it’s as if the people on TV are talking directly to you.

The subject suddenly loses interest in things that were once important and finds himself staring at numbers, pictures and letters, seeking meaning in that which the brain is saying is important but in all likelihood is not. This is a very common thing to occur in so-called Targeted Individuals in ‘organized stalking.’ I saw a NJSF intern fill notebook after notebook with graffiti, license plate numbers and other similar things in 1989 and 1990. I wound up doing similar things, but frequently stopped myself accepting there was significance due to having observed her doing it two decades previous.

There was even a moment, in December 2009 or January 2010, where I picked up a book of poetry from the 1930s. I read it and saw that it seemed and felt as if some of those poems held some special significance for me, as if the writer had me in mind. Since I knew that was impossible, I simply laughed and put it down. What else can you do when you have a sprained brain? More on the neuroscience behind this feeling below.

Even though you are an expert in your field, even though you should know better, it just feels right, and you know you can’t fight feelings, not forever. So you indulge them.

Holmes was a neuroscientist with a MS working on his PhD.

Random strangers involved themselves in whatever you are doing.

Sometimes these are covert operatives and sometimes they are not. Sometimes there’s even a mix, where a covert operative or two manages to corral a civilian or two in order to A} provide additional confusion and cover, and B} to arrange a later chance meeting between the target and the civilians in the hopes of a violent and crazed accusation resulting in the target’s arrest and being discredited as paranoid schizophrenic.

I had three such interactions with such groups, once in Manhattan and twice in Minneapolis. I was too cautious to cause a stir when, only in the second instance, did I see one of the group again. The third time was an invitation to a gay hookup place which was also known for being dark and dangerous. In this third case I did send an email, I think, to one of my reps, probably Klobuchar stating something about private contractors looking to off me. Of course the real reason for sending it the hope that they would see it, if they were indeed doing that, and back off. I have very, very low expectations of our elected leaders.

You can’t hear yourself think sometimes, while something deep down in the recesses of your mind keeps telling you, if they’d just shut up for ten minutes, you could catch your breath. You could solve this problem. You could figure out why your life was turned upside down and you could start to correct it.

…to thoughts of death and destruction.

And the noise! The noise coming from the upstairs apartment is preventing you from sleeping, from coming up with those bursts of inspiration you did in undergrad, while getting your masters.

Shock and awe. The people upstairs {Anthony and roommate} at my condo in Brooklyn, at the hotel in Port Huron a few nights before the Squidgate trial, and at my first apartment in Minneapolis frequently seemed to be making noise on purpose to bother me. This came full circle when the guy living in the basement came to my apartment accusing me of doing the same to him. The use of voice-to-skull, silent sound, or hypersonic sound being used to make it seem as though there is more noise than there actually is a real harassment possibility. This is why the latter made it into the Mind-Affecting Technology tab; it doesn’t affect it directly but used to harass, it moves in the direction of sleep deprivation and torture.

Additionally, they can easily start slipping ideas in there for violence. And then there’s the usage the Army FOIA reveals: You can actually make a person angry using microwave non-lethal weapons. See also GITMO detainees Shaker Aamer and ousted Honduran President Manuel Zelaya as two probable targets of NLWs. I was also told that VA whistleblower Kernan Manion, who was fired for explaining the problem and bad response of military officers to suicidal vets, has been targeted with these or similar.

People you once depended on, though you didn’t realize how much until they stopped talking to you, stopped calling, emailing, texting, stopped inviting you to lunch, the movies, parties, sporting events…they provided some refuge…some semblance of normalcy.

This is where it gets a little sketchy. While, yes, a portion of this wedge-driving is due to the target’s altered behavior, they also target the target’s friends, family and co-workers, no question about it. Everything from guiding conversations and web searches resulting in possibly/possibly not accurate articles about mental health {but not necessarily accurate where the target’s case is concerned — see items 1 and 5 in particular} to somehow masking pheromones.

Backing up a moment. While, yes, human beings rely primarily on vision and the even better Technicolor show that the brain turns our more-limited-than-we-think vision into, there is still an olfactory element to the human psyche that may be even more linked to the unconscious than sight and sound. A smell can bring back a memory.

And PopSci once did a great episode that demonstrated that most people actually wind up making dates with people based on their different pheromones. That is, this is at first how we avoid inbreeding: By smelling unconsciously other people’s pheromones to ensure that they are different from our own. Later, when an intimate relationship matures, we come to recognize each other by scent.

Alter that scent, and you may as well be dead as far as your close friends and partner are concerned. CIA looked into ‘aromatic amines’ at the University of Illinois. It’s no big stretch to think they’ve done more with that, made note of others’ research for the dirty tricks department.

More on destroying relationships below.

But when you were trying to talk reason to them, explain that despite whatever is happening to you, you are still you, that you still care about them, they don’t seem to hear what you’re saying.

That is exactly how it often felt for me. One particular conversation resulted in me saying, “Will you listen to what I’m saying instead of what you want to hear?”

One phone call is especially frustrating because of some fat cow walking by when your are on your cell in the park, slurping a fast-food shake and mocking what you say. You have your first murderous thought.

Which resulted in me cursing at her.

You accept that your friends have abandoned you. You try not to hate them.

At least when you realize this was a covert operation perhaps planned under Bush but executed under Obama. These things do not happen, not on this scale, without approval of some kind, however obscured, from the POTUS’ national security board or whatever they call it this week.

It’s especially difficult when you recall all of the times you were there for them.

Fact: I supported my partner when he was laid off. Twice.

Fact: I once told him that if I hadn’t left Tennessee and gone to NYC I’d have become an alcoholic or blown my head off with a shotgun.

Fact: That’s where I am now as a write this.

Fact: I have not blown my head off.

Fact: He threw me out and tried to get me to go there anyway.

Fact: He got married on 11/11/11, after I helped the OFA and DFL with the midterm elections in 2010, after telling me that he would not be doing so until March of 2012. I discovered this on Facebook while leaving Minneapolis and driving to my parents’ house.



Fact: When we were still in Brooklyn, we both witnessed a man laughing like the Joker. He wrote it off as him being cold. I knew it was a PSYOP because of context and I had a better view of the whole thing. WEDGE-DRIVING.

Fact: Barack Obama is a phony asshole who will let you down every time. **

Also fact: Despite how that looks, my ex is a good person. He worked at Google. They had full access to his head and biochemistry day in and day out. By the way, he had a female friend in grad school who similarly seemed to go crazy. He was not looking forward to going through that again.

You recall when they were there for you and wonder what flipped them from “true” to “fair weather” over night.

Of course. This is a waking nightmare. This can’t be reality. Life isn’t like this. This is not how the world works. Ask anyone. You are a pariah here.

You have your first disappointing review of your work. You wonder what went wrong. It seemed to make sense at the time, but your mentor, supportive, nurturing, encouraging in the past, is suddenly cold. He looks at you as if you are an insect or a frog laid open and pinned to a wax surface.

This must be Hell.

Your ex lies to you repeatedly. You try to connect, try to at least maintain a friendly closing, avoid burning the bridge. Maybe one day things will go back to normal. But her every subtext, her every nonverbal action, just screams, “I hate you. I wish you were dead.” You wonder how that is possible. The thought occurs to you, this could be some government program, some cryptic conspiracy designed to…what? Destroy you? For what purpose? You aren’t that important, that voice inside your head says. You aren’t yet somebody…like your dad. Impossible, no motive.

It becomes easier to believe, those who don’t realize things as simple as CIA’s budget being one-and-one-half times the collect-it-all-globally NSA’s, that it just cannot be a government or quasi-government conspiracy. We are programmed to think paranoid people are wrong, not that there might actually be a valid reason to be paranoid or that their delusions might be related to actual harassment such as was seen under COINTELPRO.

And you recall the legal definition of torture…requires being in custody. What happens when everywhere is your prison? Requires permanent damage. What happens if the damage is temporary but unbearable in the present? Requires intent. What if those doing it don’t know why they are doing it? It’s crazy.

Lawyers are always involved. The question of how best to follow the law doesn’t come up with these people, it’s how best to get around it. Those three points: 1} Detained. Not technically in a cell, the back of a police van when harassed, zapped, drugged, ruined, so legally isn’t torture. 2} Permanent damage. Possibly not permanent damage. Even Holmes may recover eventually. So? You people drove him to kill others even if it was only temporary insanity. But not technically torture because might not be permanent. 3} Must be intentional. Someone surely knows. But if you receive one paper cut from 10,000 different covertards and bleed to death, did they intend to murder you?

No, this must be Hell.

Easier to believe. Simpler.

You wake up one morning and put your hand to your head. Your hair feels odd…different. You go look in the mirror and your skin is pale. Your hair is standing straight up. The pallor of your skin makes your lips seem red…like a clown’s. You laugh.

In my case it was actually my hair falling out or breaking off in clumps, which I suppose was supposed to be a zombie thing. This occurred just a few days before the Squidgate trial sentencing hearing. Later, they went with dosing me with testosterone or similar to simulate becoming a werewolf and to increase aggression. I can conceive of using the dirty tricks book to do similar with the Joker.

You give the library one last go. Somehow, you are going to turn that one thing around. You are going to get that PhD. You are going to make your dad proud. He always had faith in you.

No, he didn’t.

That voice again from somewhere in the back intruding on the front.

He only cared about how you reflected on him.

You start to argue with what you think is part of yourself. It’s then that you see him. Some man who reminds you of your dad. He’s right there in the library. You are relieved that at least he isn’t looking your way. He can’t see you in this state.

Keep in mind that this is a very, very short list of PSYOP and methods. There are dozens, perhaps hundreds, of other little things being done. We are just looking at the signposts, the milestones here.

Probably, the above quote is done using V2K or similar. But the target is so off-balance at this point, it would be very difficult to tell where the mass-shooter-making team ends and someone like Holmes begins.

Prime example I’ve mentioned many times before. While walking to sell some DVDs in order to eat, I passed a shooting range and the thought “Wouldn’t it be fun to learn to shoot?” popped into my head. I declined, but can see why some others might head down that path.

It reminds you of other things, it’s not you that’s the problem. It’s other people. You surpassed your mentor. It was jealousy that you saw, not disappointment. He couldn’t understand what your wrote and he was jealous of your ability.

That’s what is wrong! Thats what’s wrong with everyone. They are just too dumb, too ignorant. For chrissakes, the ancient Egyptians studied nerves and humanity still doesn’t get it, doesn’t understand what it is. What do you have to do to break through the morass?

Teach them a lesson.

The target is at the breaking point now. Only a little more will push them over the edge.

This brings up doppelgangers. The main first use for them was to make foreign intelligence services think that a particular person {usually either the CIA officer posing as a diplomat or the potential CIA agent who is betraying their country for the CIA} is in a place other than they are. There were even mannequins and an inflatable “person” to sit in the back seat of a car when followed by the foreign equivalent of FBI.

But then there are also uses in PSYOP. I saw a lot of them. In most cases, I think the point was to confuse and cause me to discredit myself. Sometimes I don’t think I even understood who the doppelganger was supposed to look like, but it was a machinegun of harassment; some “bullets” missed.

“Some men just want to watch the world burn.”

You hear the voice and then the recording with Michael Caine’s voice.

See again the poetry book anecdote above. But it sure feels like it was meant for you.

Suddenly, a young, beautiful undergrad is standing near you. Unlike the man who looked like your dad, she is not frowning at you. She is smiling. It is the first person who smiled at you with any genuine in weeks at least. The front of her t-shirt has Heath Ledger’s made up face on it. She sort of winks, you think, and turns. The words on her back sink into your brain and the letters burn themselves into your eyelids:


This bitch almost certainly works for the government. What the hell is she thinking? What did they tell her?


Though it is an interesting topic, let us recall that Jung had been experimenting with several different drugs at the time he started, for lack of a better phrase, being able to see behind the meme curtain. Most likely, this has to do with how memories are formed. When something is perceived as important, eg it appears to enhance survival/fitness, a surge of adrenalin and other neurochems is released making sure that the brain stores the information. What happens, then, when that surge is going on non-stop due to having been drugged, zapped in the head with microwave NLWs to the same effect, or having problems with gut bacteria due to trauma and isolation? Everything seems to be of the utmost importance. This may also explain the so-called Truman Show Syndrome.

You suddenly know what to do. You’ll be famous. You’ll teach the world a lesson. You’ll share the pain, direct it back outwards. You’ll teach Hell and its inhabitants what happens when they hurt a real man. All of that with one act. You are a genius.

By this time, the rage is so strong it is no longer an emotion but rather an ethos. Judgment is gone and so the target is set on the course others set for him or her. All that remains to do is providing talking heads, talking points, and planting statements in the press promoting “lone wolf” shooter narratives.

A bunch of innocent people die because, for example, banksters are robbing the whole planet. What a surprise. The people who did this now move on to the next target.

Further reading: CIA Radicalization tab.


* That is, those who are not motivated by crimes of passion that were not the product of intelligence community covert operations or the rampant financial duress many people experience in this cheap labor / long hours {which we euphemistically refer to as ‘productivity’} loving country. As far as I can tell, manufactured violence cases are a small percentage of the whole. However, that government and industry would do this at all under any circumstances at all is deeply disturbing.

** Okay, maybe that’s opinion, but I have some data to back that up.


Horrified, Storified

Two new storifies up regarding my Twitter yesterday:

“And I Feel Fine” is about the political, but not the technological, singularity. CIA is about to check the last thing off of its Halloween wishlist and it spells the end of any opposition to cheap labor, Permawar, corporate and military generated pollution, whatever it is that the multinationals want to keep on doing. The photo is a great example of Optimism Bias, aka waiting for Superman aka “He’s Not Coming, Lol.” (Right?).

“When They Fall” is showing just how quickly antiwar icons can be turned into tools of the military industrial complex. Includes what Monuments Men was about and a hilarious interaction between a famous folk singer and the robot brain of death. {Recall also Sting’s argument with Miles Copeland in Rolling Stone}.

And you can check out, from a year ago, “Insistence-is-Futile.” The story of how I called bullshit on ISIL before Tony Blair did. Note that the photo has apparently been debunked if you can trust McCain’s office at all. It still works symbolically regardless.

BBD – STUXNET Used Domestically? {Updated}

{Author’s note: Find that using this background method, even when really terse, works better. Otherwise, it’s like stating in media res every time. While you might assume you’re looking at some freak accident or coincidence below, there are dozens more I’ve witnessed, making such an idea preposterous if you were there for all of it.}



It’s like being given the choice to die in Westworld or Futureworld. You can be a poor, bathtub gin drinking, dirt-eating c——-er who has to please the Man Who Lives in the Big Mansion on the Hill lest you lose what little you have to his hired guns; or, you can be a frightened, silenced cog in a dystopic machine that builds neo-pyramids to multinational corporate ‘gods’ regarding whom you must fear even thinking bad thoughts about or be disappeared by shadowy figures neither completely government nor wholly corporate.

Who would you side with? The Penguin or Lex Luthor?

The Kochs

Do I really need to link it all up? Yes, greedy thieves who steal from Native American tribes. Yes, powerful and influential enough to cause federal government shutdowns threatening to cut people off from even being able to eat. Opposed to any and all social programs and controls on industry of any sort. Additionally, their lobbying shows that they have some connection to defense and/or the intelligence community but I’ve yet to learn what that is. They also allegedly did business with Iran, just as Hewlett-Packard under Fiorina had done, Halliburton under Cheney with Iraq and all when it was technically illegal to do so.

The Dems

Let’s look at what will be Obama’s legacy, shall we? Basically, not counting laughable complete bullshit stories like ending the wars, I think there are two things that Obambots will be able to call accomplishments as long as you don’t look to closely.

The first, of course, healthcare reform. The latest rumor, which really makes complete sense once you start reading articles about the Trans-Pacific Partnership and related secret legislation, is that it was enacted to prevent single payer healthcare reform. This fits in better with, for example, everything we know about Eric Holder. Really, Obama has surrounded himself with criminals and we can deduce what from that?

The other is of course the repealing of Don’t-Ask-Don’t-Tell. Hey, I thought it was a good idea at the time as well. But all it really means is that if you’re LGBT, you, too, can pilot a flying death robot aimed at brown people in order to steal their natural resources. Similar with gay marriage {and if you look at the facts, the Republicans and Democrats have about the same record; one of the judges who voted in favor was appointed by Reagan and even Dick Cheney came out in favor before Hillary Clinton or Barack Obama did}: Gay marriage good for LGBT, economy; Corporate Fascist Dystopia bad for everyone except tippy-top elite.

Even if he does manage to close the prison at Gitmo, it will just mean operations have been moved, shifted to some other set of methods, new black sites. This is a shell game that only cares about appearances not truth.

In other words, Obama and the Democrats don’t actually have anything positive to show the 99% during his tenure. At all. His war on whistleblowers and HRC’s clear intentions to continue it, means that there will be no positive change, not without something resembling civil war, and, well, they’ll kill lots and lots Americans before they consider renegotiating a New New Deal.


They both suck.


I wound up getting what was essentially the Squidgate juror’s old job as an outside contractor at a paper mill plant when I lived in Michigan. I started in September of 2012 and went through orientation and drug screening with a young African-American man, single father of one. I discovered some months later that Koch had been one of the previous owners of the plant.

In February of 2013, I got a call asking if I could cover part of a shift, one day a week for 4.5 hours each Friday. I checked with the supervisors, we worked it out, done deal.

The young man I had gone through orientation with had apparently gone insane. He didn’t show up for work, said he had a flat tire, said that ‘they’ had tried to kill him on the Interstate, and that they had already killed his aunt there. There was a story about a white woman killed on the Interstate around that time, but as far as anyone could tell, he was not related to her.

Some time in March I figured out that Koch owned this second site, a plastic plant, I was working at. I knew this probably meant I had to watch my step and I did so.

I also discovered that a woman whose job it was to deal with environmental compliance keeled over and died suddenly during a meeting in 2012. Her daughter showed up one day while I was working and I asked the next time I saw the other guard and got the scoop. Apparently a blood clot in her lung or similar, was what the coroner said caused it.

My access to the plant was limited to the front gate, offices, a workshop, and part of the control building. Regarding this latter area, depending on how many people were still inside, I sometimes delivered a list to the folks working there who were doing their shiftchange around the time I got off work.

There was a computer on my desk at the gate but I’ve no idea if the plant’s machinery was on the local network. I don’t think that it was.

By August of 2013, I was looking for some way out. While I’d hardly qualify as a member of ELF, I didn’t feel right about contributing to carbon-death either. I found a reason to go to Chicago, and so I resigned.

A few nights later, after my shift ended, there was a fire at the paper mill. It was FUBAR on several levels, but there were no casualties. It did result in someone else being dismissed from working there, the person they hoped to replace me with, which meant they had to fill my slot twice.

Then, just before my final days, this happened at the Koch plant.


Watched this NOVA show a few nights back. Must note that Google and a Koch foundation are among those who fund NOVA.

There’s a portion of the show where they cover the STUXNET virus. As you may recall, it was used to slow down Iran on purifying nuclear material by causing their machines to over-exert and destroy themselves by targeting a part commonly used in manufacturing called a PLC {see below}. Some time later it was, I think, fairly well established, that the US and Israel were behind STUXNET.


And the point at last. What really caught my attention in the show, because of the problem at the Koch plastic plant, was Kim Zetter’s comment:

[Programmable Logic Controllers] are used in chemical plants, they control the recipe that gets put into drugs and chemicals.


Again, what happened at the plant was during the government shutdown in the Fall of 2013. The reactor, where the chemicals are mixed, usually yielding a liquid that is sent to another area of the plant, became filled with solid plastic. They had to shut down and have people chisel it out before work could resume.


And, again, I had nothing to do with what happened. Why in the hell would I help a government who purposely, viciously, knowingly not only ruined my life permanently but also did so in the hopes that I would go ‘postal’ so that they could sell the idea the LGBT people are more prone to terrorism, adding yet another {notice the pattern here} minority to the ‘list’ of minorities that authority figures sometimes quietly, sometimes openly, accuse of being the ‘bad guys’ ? Not gonna happen, not interested in increasing NATSEC’s market share which is already targeting Muslims, African-Americans and even veterans. Cannot stand these people and consider them to be the worst combination of serial killer, pedophile, genocidal war criminal, radicalized suicide bomber, Spanish Inquisitor, psychotic Nazi human experimenting scientist, parasite, embezzling banker, global drug cartel, dirty cop, and used car salesman that you can imagine.

And who keep throwing me out there as the patsy for things that they’ve done. Same thing in New York when, I think stands to reason, CIA and NSA were spying on my clients and other tenants in the building; they could throw someone to the dogs as phony HUMINT cover for what was most likely and mostly their combined ELINT. And the purpose of the spying almost certainly more to do with insider trading than national security.

This is evil all around and I hate using that word. But what else can you call extreme selfishness, which is exactly what this is, what these people are? I’ll close with a cheesy pointless poem.

No love for Koch;
No love for CIA;
Stuck in a world with both
O me-oh, my-oh, hey.

* {Sidenote for future reference: also relates to automobiles being remote controlled. # Michael Hastings}

Updates: Multiple clarifying, correcting dates and numbers {4.5 hours a week, not 6} as I find physical evidence in my possession, etc. Also added a paragraph on the strange death of a woman in 2012 who worked at the plastic plant.

From a direct deposit paycheck stub:

Added Gitmo paragraph.


BBD – My Drone Experience

First, if you haven’t done so, you need to check out The Intercept‘s new exposé on assassination aka targeted killing aka surgical strikes via drones aka UAVs aka ‘birds.’ There are eight articles and I’ve only begun delving in myself. Besides the scoop via an unnamed source aka whistleblower, the graphics are amazing and the design team should win some award along side the journos.

The importance of this story may be underestimated by some. People are ignorant about why, how, when assassination became illegal.


I cannot recall exactly when this was because it was before everything started going sideways in December of 2009 and I started taking note. I’m going to guess it was Spring of 2009, but it may well have been a year before or even the Fall of 2008. I recall it being windy, which implies April or October, but might have been neither.

Worse, I’ve lied to you, gentle reader. At least sort of. And that’s something I’ve promised never to do without a very good reason.

It wasn’t actually a drone I saw, but rather a kite. {Below I’ll link you up to how that relates}.

The movement of the thing was so bizarre that I had wondered fancifully if there wasn’t some unseen method of propulsion onboard, micro-sized and hidden from view. Recalling it now, and incorporating some of the other things… methods and trends…I lean heavily away from that.

Though the thing that kept me from being able to look away was how it seemed to be moving by some means one would associate with a motored hovering device, I think it far more likely that it was simply done with multiple tethers, though I could not see them. It stopped periodically and hovered. Suspicious activity for a “stringless kite.”

This occurred on the avenue of my apartment in Brooklyn and I watched from the little balcony thingy. It appeared to emerge from inside a sunken overpass nearby and made its way all the way up to street level and eventually over a fence next to the large landmark building next door out of my view.

The kite itself was the ‘delta’ style, that is the v-shaped sort. It kind of reminds me of the classic ‘Bat’ kite, but as I recall it was yellow, not black.

Anyway, it was obvious that the wind was blowing hard against the wings because the way it shook. But without a string, it should have made a quick dive upwards and then nosedived to the ground.

Multiple strings? There is a similar trick, actually many, many variants, on how to for example levitate a person and then walk around them and pass one of those big hula hoop things over them to make it appear as though there are no wires. In reality, at least in the old variants I saw in old stage magic books decades ago, the ring is actually has the wires running inside it and has a slit in it, and the magician is merely passing it along the center of the X-shape that are being used to levitate the assistant.

Yeah, like this one.

So could it be with a kite. Multiple tethers from multiple directions giving it the appearance of no one tethering it at all.

Why did they show me this shit? No idea. Probably to mess with my head. I really just rationalized it as some very strange crosswinds at the time. We do that, ignore the seemingly impossible until we can no longer do so.

Why am I bothering to write it up? Two reasons. Because it was such a heavy news day and that, apart from what else I’m going to say on the political end, I’ve little to offer on this subject. Also because I’m still disappointed that I haven’t seen one in action. But then I also wonder what a gal has to do to warrant a black helicopter and I’ve yet to see one of those hovering about either.

Right. What do kites have to do with drones?

Joe Dana, “Who needs drones? Surveillance expert uses kites,” AZ Central, 24 February 2015:


The answer to his question in the title is of course murderers, but we’ll get to that in a moment.

Drones are all the rage. But in the world of forensic evidence gathering, an old-fashioned kite will often suffice. And better yet, kites aren’t subject to the same FAA regulations.

“Drones are here to stay, and they are a very valuable tool,” said Randy Anglin of Lionstrike Forensics. “But kites and balloons have become a very valuable tool for what we do.”

Kites and balloons for surveillance. Makes sense.

Carl Engleking, “If You Can Fly a Kite, You Can Fly This Drone,” Discover Magazine Blog, 19 August 2015:


{Note: Have had trouble viewing this link since doing so originally and the URL I saved somehow added an identifier that wasn’t there originally and I have removed for you.}

While some businesses are eager to unleash drones and put them to work, one company wants to leash them up.

The Fotokite Phi is a drone, built by Zürich-based Perspective Robotics, for people who have no interest in actually flying a drone. The Fotokite is a fold-up quad with a GoPro payload that’s tethered to a leash, which makes operating a drone as simple as walking a dog.

So that’s the psychotic-government-operatives-showed-me-a-freaky-kite-but-not-a-black-helicopter story.

I survived COINTELPRO 2.0 and I didn’t even get a black helicopter.

Moving on…


Right. But kites don’t much kill.

Matthew Power, “Confessions of a Drone Warrior,” GQ, 22 October 2013:


A later study found that drone operators suffered from the same levels of depression, anxiety, PTSD, alcohol abuse, and suicidal ideation as traditional combat aircrews. These effects appeared to spike at the exact time of Bryant’s deployment, during the surge in Iraq. (Chillingly, to mitigate these effects, researchers have proposed creating a Siri-like user interface, a virtual copilot that anthropomorphizes the drone and lets crews shunt off the blame for whatever happens. Siri, have those people killed.)

And this is where it gets even spookier. They key, per the article, is removing the guilt. So you have a few choices, if you are a murderous psycho among the Joint Chiefs of Staff:

1} You can hire people who don’t have a conscience or who are already homicidal maniacs and try to control them.

2} You can take a more ordinary person and muck about with their brain chemistry or otherwise alter their personalities and neurochems so that they are more like the people in #1. See again “try to control” portion.

3} Create an AI that takes care of the whole thing, adding another buffer between killer and killed.

4} All of which is leading up to use domestically.

Pressing pause here to make something clear. Everything is about the banking system. The 2001 National Intelligence Estimate suggested that the growing gap between the rich and poor was the biggest national security concern facing the US in the foreseeable 21st century. Surprise, surprise, actually chieving this, not mitigating it, has been CIA’s real mission all along.

David Talbot, “NEW BOOK ON CIA MASTER-PLOTTER DULLES, SNEAK PEEK: PART 3; Dealing with Inconvenient Facts, CIA Style,” WhoWhatWhy, 14 October 2015:


Dulles’s job, simply put, was to hijack the US government to benefit the wealthy.

By mimicking the UK’s Gentleman’s Spy Club MI6, we incorporated class warfare as well. Everything must be viewed with this lens on.

Rather than work openly and brainstorm new markets to explore to make the world a better place, of course the Cold Warriors and military industrial complex instead tried to figure out how to create more boogeymen in order to turn a profit for themselves. Of course they also made up reasons in order to create an oppressive Stasi-state ready to silence anyone who complains about this theft, is able to see it hiding behind the empty rhetoric and veil of lies.

Naomi Wolf, “The coming drone attack on America,” Guardian, 21 December 2012:


People often ask me, in terms of my argument about “ten steps” that mark the descent to a police state or closed society, at what stage we are. I am sorry to say that with the importation of what will be tens of thousands of drones, by both US military and by commercial interests, into US airspace, with a specific mandate to engage in surveillance and with the capacity for weaponization – which is due to begin in earnest at the start of the new year – it means that the police state is now officially here.

Never has ‘all men and all women are brothers and sisters’ meant so much. By giving active and passive approval to illegal acts by your government when used against people with brown skin overseas, you are slitting your own throat.

It’s no longer about nation states. It’s about multinational corporations and they don’t care where you’re from. You’re standing on or near something they want, so hand it over or die, dumbass. You homo sapiens all look taste alike to Tyrannosaurus Holdings Corp., nom, nom, nom.

That’s enough for tonight.


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