BBD – Meandering

First, apologies for the delay in delivering part 8 on Congress’ 1984 investigation into the use and potential abuse of audio and visual subliminal messages. Likely something in one of the more recent parts (like, say, ELECTION FRAUD) has resulted in the past few days feeling like having been kicked in the head, minus the intense pain. Feels like what I imagine a concussion might be like, perfect or otherwise. No idea how this was accomplished, merely note the brief.discussion of the “perfect concussion” during the Church/Tower hearings. Therefore, this post will largely revolve around what that does and how and why people that this kind of thing happens to come off as not being “all there,” “playing with a full deck,” choose your metaphor. Posts for yesterday and earlier today were aborted due to the realization that I was finding it difficult to maintain a throughline, a cohesive thread. So, why not do a post on how it’s difficult to do at times?

Second, I’ll give a brief teaser about what part 8 and the testimony of Dr. Lloyd H. Silverman of NYU and NY’s Veteran’s Hospital will likely entail. The ability to, using subliminals, increase depression and the belief at that time that depression generally had two causes or connective psychological factors: loss and guilt. Here’s a hint how part of that (in this case loss) relates: dead pets and relatives.

As previously mentioned, there are a number of factors that make being, how the Organized Stalking subculture refers to it, a TI–a targeted individual–difficult.

As I’ve written previously, likely depending on whether the target is chosen due for training and testing or due to whatever they have witnessed or whatever perceived threat they pose to the criminals behind the, for lack of a better term, GLADIO-D operation to control the domestic policy of this country via black ops, they are likely surreptitiously drugged early on. In my case, I think it actually came (sort of) after a few things had already been done but before I realized there was anything suspicious about the events. For example, I didn’t positively connect my dog’s illness to harassment until long after she was put to sleep. Think of those things as sort of psychological landmines. Once being targeted becomes clear, you look back and realize some previous events were not just life throwing you curveballs, but rather done in the hopes that once you realize just how goddam evil those who arranged it are, you will go off the deep end, become violent, act irrationally and further increase your own frustration in attempting to alleviate it. In short, it is a lot like being bullied at school day after day and finding the teachers just don’t care, either fear the bullied as well or approve of their actions.

Except it’s happening to adults who are better at dealing with it. Except those adults are also drugged.

The first two things you wonder are, what is happening and why is it happening? Typically, at the beginning at least, you won’t be able to answer either question. You go round and round, looking for answers. They refer to this in OS as churning. You spend hours attempting to figure out why. You knee-jerk assume that either you actually did something to deserve it (because authority is always assumed to be in the right, just ask them) or there’s been a mistake. You may even feel guilty over whatever it is you don’t know you did. You wonder about everything you’ve ever done.

Probably, it isn’t until your entire life is a wreck and, only if you’re lucky enough to somewhat overcome what’s already been done to you drugwise, that you realize, no, these people are something akin to nazis and guilt or innocence (there’s that depression trigger Silverman talks about again) isn’t important to them.

You realize that you have all sorts of evidence of your life having been tampered with but likely nearly none explaining who was responsible. You might have even fallen prey to disinformation blaming the supernatural or space aliens, some ethnic, religious or political group, some fictional group.

Otherwise you tend to land at “the government.” And why not? They are both supposed to be the only ones conducting black ops and weird experiments and at the same time protecting citizens from crimes (such as conspiracy against rights, link along right side of blog to text of it).

Of course there is evidence of political parties (at least one) doing black ops on US soil and elsewhere. Besides Watergate, there is evidence to suggest the GOP was deeply involved in Iran-Contra and Arms-for-Hostages and had, likely still has, quite the black bag machine. And then there was James O’Keefe III’s ACORN stunt and his attempt to bug the office of a US senator. No investigation into the use of black ops to influence elections would seem to me to indicate, again, corruption in Congress (you know, the H.O.R. of Babble-On…well, couldn’t resist).

But I am drifting from the point (which is a point unto itself). You realize you’ve got enough that anyone would have to believe that something odd happened.

But when you try to explain it you realize that you have to go through the same damn logic all over again and part of that logic is as simple as: this much stuff does not happen to one person in that short amount of time. Just doesn’t. But explaining that, any person who hasn’t been through it wants to diminish the whole idea by picking apart each of these many events one-by-one. You realize that it’s an uphill (practically vertical, perpendicular to the ground) battle and you’ve already spent so much time and energy debating it all with yourself, you’re tired and here’s someone diminishing your suffering, making light of it.

You freak out. You lose your temper. You wind up sounding like Mel Gibson in…well… most anything. You rave like a mad person. That’s what they’ve done to you.

Your government failed you. Society failed you. Family fails you. The law failed you. You may or may not latch onto some kind of belief in some kind of god or God for comfort.

Evil wins.

(Now, wouldn’t it just have been better to have let me enjoy my right to free speech?).


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