A Message for ‘Janus’

And I hate that Goddamn Barzini.

This has nothing to do with the Hammonds that I am aware of. At least not directly.

This is directed at the field operative working for a United States of America entity who, possibly under the supervision of ‘Balding,’ planned and executed as a lead on the team to ruin my life. This is the person whom I refer to as ‘Janus.’ I use that name because on the day he came in to the deli and, utilizing whichever technology was used in addition to the street theater psychological operations, directed me to believe had some connection to Peter Watts, I think he was wearing one of those expensive masks. On the other occasion in which I saw him hiding outside and next door to investigative journalist Jeremy Scahill’s home, I don’t think that he was wearing it. Probably likewise on the other two occasions, the first when stealing my building’s garbage in November of 2008, and the other in February or so, after the two previously-mentioned appearances in January.

I think I’ve alluded to this before, but perhaps not so plainly, not so directly, and not recently. Much of the last three years plus I have dedicated to trying to convince you to blow the whistle on these kinds of domestic activities that violate pretty much every basic civil rights law on the books including the one I’ve mentioned many times: “Conspiracy Against Rights.” I suppose I did so in part due to the success in the brainwashing you and your team implemented. It was clearly successful and, if I still had a dog in this fight, my concern would be how that could be applied on a massive scale, resulting in a sort of demagogue. The self-fulfilling prophecy stuff I mentioned a few posts below. For me, that has become great fodder for writing fiction, but, really, I have so little stake in the outcome of all of this now–thanks in large part to you–that even that doesn’t really bother me. It will happen.

I imagine you view things similarly, except of course given just how much some of these people hated me–look at the lengths they’ve gone to–you were likely well rewarded for doing this and similar to other people who, like me, had simply been in the wrong place at the wrong time and the paranoid powers that be couldn’t see their way to taking the risk that their pre-9/11 much improved COINTELPRO-type  programs would be exposed. Hilarious, isn’t it? They are exposed now, but it hasn’t altered a single thing. While I can empathize with those who may have thought helping me along was a good idea on principle, it was foolhardy at a minimum. How could you possibly expect to expose programs that manipulate people, when the point is you can manipulate people? The very crime being exposed is the very thing protecting it from exposure.

Crazy Little Ship of Fools, indeed.

Speaking of which, another chance to alienate those few shaky allies I may have, it gets tiresome seeing the hope pinned upon, for example, the recent testimony of former NSA employees in Germany. Yes, it’s an important issue and I’m happy that they did it, but with an exception or two, what was discussed has been going on a lot longer, and even if NSA were magically put back in the bottle, there still would be the kinds of operations such as you and your team executed upon me, my friends, family, and co-workers. I saw it in 1989 and after. I saw evidence of it from 1988. I have since read that others first had it happen to them five or so years before that.

So, we both understand that, like the laws that keep getting passed, 9/11 was an excuse after the fact. We also know that NSA is not going to stop; all they have to do is scare everyone and opinion is again swayed. The MINERVA type programs probably don’t even originate with Obama advisor Cass Sunstein, though clearly the Obama administration was fine with provoking US citizens to the brink of violence and then swooping down and arresting or shooting them, as whim dictates.

We also know what would happen to you, or a set of things that could happen to you, should you decide to blow the whistle. Really, we know a set of possible things that could happen. Yeah, they might really murder you. Or, make you so crazy that you’d be discredited and these programs that prove that what the United States claims it is an advocate for is a whole and complete sham would remain out of scrutiny.

Between the absolute impossibility that people would believe it even when presented with evidence and the prospect of sacrificing yourself for a bunch of people this naive, I reverse my position, and say don’t do it. It’s not worth the trouble. People are arrogant, petty, and exceedingly ignorant and get the government that they deserve. If there were ever an overblown, extreme causer of world misery, it is this country. Like Obama, the interrogators and scientists turned torturers, select members of Congress, and people like you, being the sole superpower has corrupted the psychology of the country as a whole. This only made mass manipulation easier.

It’s just not worth it. While, yes, there might be some other way to, as a friend put it on the phone recently, “save the world,” this is the only one that I would seem to have any influence over.

And it hardly seems worth saving. The truth is so far from the world view of even those who should know better…

Well, what would happen? The vast majority of people would not even hear about it. Just like all they see is a few seconds of Diane Sawyer or CNN of things blowing up and, rather than those who have control, blame the almost powerless because that’s what they’ve been taught. It’s like always blaming the victims of rape or police brutality, or assuming someone who is accused of a crime must be guilty because why would there be a trial if they weren’t?

Yeah, we’re a wonderful species. 🙂

Then, those who did hear would be split up into camps.

One camp would support you in word. Within that camp would be a subset of people who could actually help you. Of that subset, only a very few actually would. Not really a great motivator.

I thought about ending this post with something about not letting our paths cross again and I should, by rights, at least want to hunt you down and murder you. What you did was beyond cruel and you know it.

But you don’t care. You don’t care any more than our politicians do. And that was the lesson. Thanks for that. There is a certain comfort in knowing that you understand how things are, even if you don’t much like the answer.

And we both know that I wouldn’t do it. That said, I’d prefer not to ever see you again. Expect in your line of work, you would as well. Serendipity.

I will, of course, continue to fight. I can’t seem to get the message across that a) I don’t have any desire to murder other people, b) I don’t want to kill myself either, and c) I even more so have no desire to join your little merry band of psychopaths or anyone else’s. I just don’t. Standing on principle? Stubbornness? Don’t know. Guess I don’t like rewarding shitbaggery. And I think either Russia or China (or possibly ours pretending) finally made a move.

Just.Not.Interested.

It is a proxy war, and you are a proxy, a pawn. Maybe you’ll get to be a real player, but I expect you’ll find that there’s always a bigger fish and you won’t ever escape the strings, the hold, the chains…however it is you think of it. It’s just a different game of the same on that level.

I guess the other reason I’ve done all of this is so I know that I tried and am therefore absolved of persecution from my own internal guilt mechanism. I warned them. Dumbasses won’t listen, won’t learn. What else can you do? You can’t even convince people who know there’s something really wrong…they just rationalize it away. It’s like magic.

Well, there’s Clarke’s Third Law.

The American Civil War certainly happened with the help of newspapers. And yet, as people did then and always will, we overestimate our own smarts and abilities. “I can’t be tricked.” “I can’t be hypnotized.”

I mean, W. R. Hearst managed to PSYOP the entire country into illegalizing marijuana, and still we will blame Mexicans for drug violence.

The Lindberghs did such a good job in the papers that they probably got the wrong people convicted.

As noted below, Cheney got that “liberal” New York Times to lie so he could, and we are constantly bombarded with Islamophobic messages. So much so that a fascist, paranoid FBI agent’s assertion that we are at war with Islam is actually more honest than Lindsey Graham’s qualification of “radical.”

And yet we think we see the truth. In simply considering what the majority of messages we receive say, we accept them by sheer number as the truth.

Seems like that was the basis for “The Big Lie.” But those people on TV seem so sincere, sound so knowledgeable, are talking to our leaders and why would they lie to us?

We think MINERVA is “research,” and not the test that it was. Damn, we’re asking to get screwed, practically begging for it.

The Age of the Multinational has come and brought with it the Age of the Psychopath.

And that’s cool and all. But could you do one favor and ask them to stop trying to recruit me?

Really.

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