BBD – Going With the Gut

“Yes, stand a little out of my sun.”
–Diogenes, in one of several attempts to tell the conqueror Alexander the Great politely to go f— himself, after being asked if there was anything he could do for the philosopher.

There are a few things on the backburner right now. One is a follow-up to the post about Jason Leopold uncovering that the Obama administration bases its actionable domestic intel on FOX News and warmongering think tanks in attempting to paint African-Americans as terrorists. Since then, there have been several new articles mentioning other think tanks doing similar, including one where a UK stinker suggests that conspiracy theorists may join ISIS. Between you and me, there’s a rumor going around that this guy likes to draw derogatory pictures of Mohammed in his spare time. But far be it from me to repeat gossip.

There is some overlap with this post regarding this overall phenomenon–think tanks make up reasons for more contracts, contracts get issued, money is flushed down the toilet and some of it makes its way back into the grubby hands of politicians–albeit only in the intended effect. I’ll explain at the end.

Though there were a few limited instances of weird mood, etc. after Plamegate, it wasn’t until Squidgate that, for example, my ex told my best friend behind my back that he was considering having me committed. I’ve detailed that in Wicked Game, even entitled a chapter regarding it and tried to explain the tortured logic of some emails and other actions I’d taken. Starting at about the middle or a little after of December 2009, my behavior altered somewhat dramatically.

I cannot place a date on when things went back to something resembling normal. This was and is more of a process than an event, and that came in spurts, setbacks, repeat. It’s something I’ve been reluctant to discuss, lest it invite a relapse.

Is it possible? Some background.


The MKULTRA draft goals memo dated 5 May 1955:

1. Substances which will promote illogical thinking and impulsiveness to the point where the recipient would be discredited in public.

5. Materials which will produce the signs and symptoms of recognized diseases in a reversible way so that they may be used for malingering, etc.

What is item 1 referring to? Seems pretty obvious. Character assassination of witnesses, whistleblowers, journalists, activists and others who might question or reveal the massive cash cow scam that NATSEC has become.

And item 5? The ability to harass and make bankrupt the same kinds of people by making them and their doctors believe that they have some disease or other.

Next, let’s discuss briefly Dr. E. Fuller Torrey. Torrey was quoted by the New York Times as describing Oscar Ortega-Hernandez as “classic schizophrenia” after the latter took some shots at the White House with a rifle some years back.

What Torrey neglected to mention was that he once worked at St. Elizabeth’s in Washington, DC, and that St E’s was once home to MKULTRA research. More recently, St. E’s was investigated by the Department of Justice for reports of violent behavior involving the patients there. A report was issued citing remedies for malpractice.

Further, Dr. T. forgot to mention that he subscribes to the theory that schizophrenia is not genetic, but biological in nature. That is, some substance or pathogen is responsible though susceptibility may involve some genetic factors.

Is this possible? Let’s see what some psych articles might tell us about it. You don’t have to click them, I’ll summarize the point.

Dale Archer MD, “Gut Bacteria Transplant: A New Treatment for Anxiety?” Psychology Today, 24 September 2013:

Emily Deans MD, “Schizophrenia and the Gut: Intestinal inflammation is linked to major mental illness,” Psychology Today, 21 September 2012:

The idea, working backwards, is that anxiety, depression, and even schizophrenia are related to neurochemical imbalances in the brain. In the latter case, there are opposing camps that state an over abundance of dopamine or serotonin are to blame.

But where do these chemicals come from? From the digestion process. Bacteria that aid digestion produce chemicals to the brain. Some varieties produce neurotransmitters and that may cause this chain reaction that ends up at emotional and/or psychological problems.

As I’ve been quite fond of pointing out, typically our brain chemistry determines our emotional state, and then we decide why that might be by looking around to see why. It’s the reverse of what we tend to think it is, at least under normal circumstances.

The suggestion is that severe trauma may trigger the dying off of certain bacteria and therefore the promotion of others that generate the chemicals. This may explain why, per the US Government’s own brainwashing document, isolation and trauma can result in hallucinations and other schizophreniclike symptoms. There is a hot debate right now, though neither Obama nor any other POTUS will end it despite flowery rhetoric, that solitary confinement can cause the same kinds of problems. We are literally creating mental illness and intentionally so in order to perpetuate the for-profit prison system on the macro level and to allow sadists to enjoy themselves on the micro one; just like the torture program.

But back to the point, are we all looking at the world with gut-bug-colored glasses? Has this mystery been solved to the point that this information can be used by spooks in order to achieve nefarious goals? Can you cause depression to the point that people like Gary Webb, Aaron Swartz, and Sandra Bland might succumb to it? This theory both competes and overlaps with the MKOFTEN study of pharma side effects one I’ve discussed in the past.

At any rate, I guess I know what it’s like to an extent. I’ve tried using several metaphors in the past, none of which really live up to the experience.

One was sort of like being trapped inside your own head and only able to communicate your thoughts via jokes, poetry, symbols, song lyrics–the words of others. The ability to form coherent trains of thought or to verbalize what is going on is crippled. See again item 1 above.

Another time I suggested dropping a cement block on your foot and attempting to do algebra while still in excruciating pain. While that gets close, I think it may not last long enough for the layman to get it.

Perhaps this new one may help. Move your workplace into a van or other vehicle. Drive to a location where there is a jackhammer in use. Try to get some work done only while the jackhammer is going. You might actually be able to get a few things done with practice. However, you will be incredibly exhausted due to the level of concentration required. You won’t be able to keep it up for long, and your work will suffer.

In any case, the how may go back to MKULTRA again and The CIA Manual of Trickery and Deception, also known as Mulholland’s Manual or the “Magic Manual” in the list of subprojects. The methods and means have likely improved since then.


But on to the next point regarding personal experience. I have also written about having been poisoned. I referred to it as “poison lite”: Not so serious that hospitalization was required, but I had to sleep sitting up for fear of drowning in my own vomit.

This began at the end of March of 2012 and continued for several weeks, after seeming to go away just long enough that I dared eat a full meal again. In any case, I wound up feeling as though my digestive tract had shut down. I started munching on two or three different probiotic products {these are for replenishing bacteria that aid in digestion} and yogurt {which also contain some of that}, and eventually felt more normal.

The side-effect: A chronic cough that is related to digestion. But as time has rolled on by, I haven’t had anything like what someone might refer to as episodes either.

Is it possible that the “poison” was doing just what I thought it was, and the purpose was to get rid of whatever dopamine- and/or serotonin-enhancing bacteria I may have been slipped in December of 2009? Was that horrible experience a purging of the bad gut bugs?

Now we get to the why. The timeline {if you are a target of any kind you should compile one} makes it clearer. While I was awaiting some fate or other in Minneapolis, my ex got married in November of 2011. As noted, it would have been nearly impossible to have repaired that relationship being schizo-lite, confused, and unable to verbalize my situation even if I had understood it. So they waited until it was clearly too late to start the “cure.”

The purpose, then, to make me realize what they had done in the hopes of driving me to violence. This in turn would be used so that some think tanks could claim that LGBTQetc are more likely to become terrorists than others. You’ll also note the likelihood of doing similarly with the mentally ill.

That is why. This is how.

This is really happening. As you can see, had I obliged them and done as they required–that is gone postal or whatever some place–an interesting question could be raised, though it wouldn’t be until 50 years from now. How much of this would have been my fault and how much the fault of those who harassed, drugged, etc. me? Where does “free will” end and human sockpuppetry begin?

You cannot entirely call it false flag in this case, can you? False flag implies party A performed an operation and party B was blamed for it. In this case, both party A and B are involved.

This is the world we live in now. One where ignorance is encouraged so that power can increase the value of its own knowledge. So that the NATSEC industry can create boogeymen upon which to profit on the one hand and to distract us and the media with on the other. It is times like these when I start to wonder if Wicked Game isn’t going to have a happy ending.



  1. […] the intent to the negative, and add the possibility of having been drugged or simply harassed to the point that a natural imbalance of dopamine and/or seratonin is the result, and it becomes obvious that those who carry these forms of harassment out know what […]

  2. […] deprivation, emotional exhaustion, and the changes that occur in the brain via the BBB and the stomach via stress changed in the bacteria there, which wind up sending too much dopamine and/or serotonin, you can no longer trust your own […]

  3. […] range of effects, some of which I documented here under the microwave section, and more recently here and especially here complete with a few examples of how it could have been used. Depression, anger, […]

  4. […] due to having been drugged, zapped in the head with microwave NLWs to the same effect, or having problems with gut bacteria due to trauma and isolation? Everything seems to be of the utmost importance. This may also explain the so-called Truman Show […]

  5. […] of emotional and psychological scarring as something that occurs in the brain, but lately the research is suggesting instead the […]

  6. […] of sanity/insanity. Latest research as reported by outlets like Psychology Today is that it is possible and likely that the cause of schizophrenia, possibly other ailments like paranoia, depressi…, the gut, and not in the brain. That is, trauma and isolation can cause a shift in the makeup of […]

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