BBD – Not Blogging It

Instead I’m doing the text versions of a montage followed by an impressionist {or some other movement} painting to describe yesterday’s “chance meetings”/diversion. I will start with relevant quotes that I find hilarious and throw together some memes.

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The Weakest Force

In my eyes, indisposed in disguise as no one knows
Hides the face, lies the snake and the sun in my disgrace
Boiling heat, summer stench, ‘neath the black the sky looks dead
Call my name through the cream and I’ll hear you scream again

Science and scifi as metaphor.

Gravity. Of the four or more forces in the Universe, it is the weakest. Some of the latest research theory on why this is suggests it is because during the Big Bang, gravity was basically thrown partially out of the Universe. It pops in and out, perhaps pushing on mass then disappears back to its other home before squishing All There Is in this Universe.

Perhaps the most voracious items in our Universe is the mysterious black hole. This Black Hole Son sucks. It sucks everything and anything. Basically, it just sucks. It is an ever empty vessel in search of filling. But it can never be satisfied, and so eats everything within its gravitational tendrils. Nothing can escape it, it is said.


An old scifi film I haven’t seen in many years was The Bamboo Saucer.


It was a Cold War propaganda piece from 1968. I may be getting it confused a little with another film because I saw two back-to-back during a TV matinee. But, if I have the correct film, the saucer wound up working on the principle of locking on to the gravitational force of distant objects. In other words, need to move in a particular direction, the saucer’s navigational system knows that there’s an object in that direction with a gravitational pull and somehow enhances the mutual attraction, pulling it in that direction.

Now imagine that you are a traveler caught in the gravitational field of our sucky Black Hole. How could you escape it? I don’t think the pull of a single star would do.

But a binary system…


Now that’s interesting. You can latch on to not one but two stallions to lug your sorry-wandering-space-gypsy-butt out of the black hole muck. As opposed to the Hole’s take-take-take, you’ve got twin Sons who give-give-give, provide for life as opposed to obliterating it.

Definitely my kind of celestial bodies. Lulz.

And so that, lady’s and germs, is how you beat brainwashing. Clear as ever, aren’t I? You’re going to need to know how to do that, probably sooner than later.

Thanks for the ride. 🙂

Cheesey, but best I could do on short notice.

A Message for ‘Janus’

And I hate that Goddamn Barzini.

This has nothing to do with the Hammonds that I am aware of. At least not directly.

This is directed at the field operative working for a United States of America entity who, possibly under the supervision of ‘Balding,’ planned and executed as a lead on the team to ruin my life. This is the person whom I refer to as ‘Janus.’ I use that name because on the day he came in to the deli and, utilizing whichever technology was used in addition to the street theater psychological operations, directed me to believe had some connection to Peter Watts, I think he was wearing one of those expensive masks. On the other occasion in which I saw him hiding outside and next door to investigative journalist Jeremy Scahill’s home, I don’t think that he was wearing it. Probably likewise on the other two occasions, the first when stealing my building’s garbage in November of 2008, and the other in February or so, after the two previously-mentioned appearances in January.

I think I’ve alluded to this before, but perhaps not so plainly, not so directly, and not recently. Much of the last three years plus I have dedicated to trying to convince you to blow the whistle on these kinds of domestic activities that violate pretty much every basic civil rights law on the books including the one I’ve mentioned many times: “Conspiracy Against Rights.” I suppose I did so in part due to the success in the brainwashing you and your team implemented. It was clearly successful and, if I still had a dog in this fight, my concern would be how that could be applied on a massive scale, resulting in a sort of demagogue. The self-fulfilling prophecy stuff I mentioned a few posts below. For me, that has become great fodder for writing fiction, but, really, I have so little stake in the outcome of all of this now–thanks in large part to you–that even that doesn’t really bother me. It will happen.

I imagine you view things similarly, except of course given just how much some of these people hated me–look at the lengths they’ve gone to–you were likely well rewarded for doing this and similar to other people who, like me, had simply been in the wrong place at the wrong time and the paranoid powers that be couldn’t see their way to taking the risk that their pre-9/11 much improved COINTELPRO-type  programs would be exposed. Hilarious, isn’t it? They are exposed now, but it hasn’t altered a single thing. While I can empathize with those who may have thought helping me along was a good idea on principle, it was foolhardy at a minimum. How could you possibly expect to expose programs that manipulate people, when the point is you can manipulate people? The very crime being exposed is the very thing protecting it from exposure.

Crazy Little Ship of Fools, indeed.

Speaking of which, another chance to alienate those few shaky allies I may have, it gets tiresome seeing the hope pinned upon, for example, the recent testimony of former NSA employees in Germany. Yes, it’s an important issue and I’m happy that they did it, but with an exception or two, what was discussed has been going on a lot longer, and even if NSA were magically put back in the bottle, there still would be the kinds of operations such as you and your team executed upon me, my friends, family, and co-workers. I saw it in 1989 and after. I saw evidence of it from 1988. I have since read that others first had it happen to them five or so years before that.

So, we both understand that, like the laws that keep getting passed, 9/11 was an excuse after the fact. We also know that NSA is not going to stop; all they have to do is scare everyone and opinion is again swayed. The MINERVA type programs probably don’t even originate with Obama advisor Cass Sunstein, though clearly the Obama administration was fine with provoking US citizens to the brink of violence and then swooping down and arresting or shooting them, as whim dictates.

We also know what would happen to you, or a set of things that could happen to you, should you decide to blow the whistle. Really, we know a set of possible things that could happen. Yeah, they might really murder you. Or, make you so crazy that you’d be discredited and these programs that prove that what the United States claims it is an advocate for is a whole and complete sham would remain out of scrutiny.

Between the absolute impossibility that people would believe it even when presented with evidence and the prospect of sacrificing yourself for a bunch of people this naive, I reverse my position, and say don’t do it. It’s not worth the trouble. People are arrogant, petty, and exceedingly ignorant and get the government that they deserve. If there were ever an overblown, extreme causer of world misery, it is this country. Like Obama, the interrogators and scientists turned torturers, select members of Congress, and people like you, being the sole superpower has corrupted the psychology of the country as a whole. This only made mass manipulation easier.

It’s just not worth it. While, yes, there might be some other way to, as a friend put it on the phone recently, “save the world,” this is the only one that I would seem to have any influence over.

And it hardly seems worth saving. The truth is so far from the world view of even those who should know better…

Well, what would happen? The vast majority of people would not even hear about it. Just like all they see is a few seconds of Diane Sawyer or CNN of things blowing up and, rather than those who have control, blame the almost powerless because that’s what they’ve been taught. It’s like always blaming the victims of rape or police brutality, or assuming someone who is accused of a crime must be guilty because why would there be a trial if they weren’t?

Yeah, we’re a wonderful species. 🙂

Then, those who did hear would be split up into camps.

One camp would support you in word. Within that camp would be a subset of people who could actually help you. Of that subset, only a very few actually would. Not really a great motivator.

I thought about ending this post with something about not letting our paths cross again and I should, by rights, at least want to hunt you down and murder you. What you did was beyond cruel and you know it.

But you don’t care. You don’t care any more than our politicians do. And that was the lesson. Thanks for that. There is a certain comfort in knowing that you understand how things are, even if you don’t much like the answer.

And we both know that I wouldn’t do it. That said, I’d prefer not to ever see you again. Expect in your line of work, you would as well. Serendipity.

I will, of course, continue to fight. I can’t seem to get the message across that a) I don’t have any desire to murder other people, b) I don’t want to kill myself either, and c) I even more so have no desire to join your little merry band of psychopaths or anyone else’s. I just don’t. Standing on principle? Stubbornness? Don’t know. Guess I don’t like rewarding shitbaggery. And I think either Russia or China (or possibly ours pretending) finally made a move.


It is a proxy war, and you are a proxy, a pawn. Maybe you’ll get to be a real player, but I expect you’ll find that there’s always a bigger fish and you won’t ever escape the strings, the hold, the chains…however it is you think of it. It’s just a different game of the same on that level.

I guess the other reason I’ve done all of this is so I know that I tried and am therefore absolved of persecution from my own internal guilt mechanism. I warned them. Dumbasses won’t listen, won’t learn. What else can you do? You can’t even convince people who know there’s something really wrong…they just rationalize it away. It’s like magic.

Well, there’s Clarke’s Third Law.

The American Civil War certainly happened with the help of newspapers. And yet, as people did then and always will, we overestimate our own smarts and abilities. “I can’t be tricked.” “I can’t be hypnotized.”

I mean, W. R. Hearst managed to PSYOP the entire country into illegalizing marijuana, and still we will blame Mexicans for drug violence.

The Lindberghs did such a good job in the papers that they probably got the wrong people convicted.

As noted below, Cheney got that “liberal” New York Times to lie so he could, and we are constantly bombarded with Islamophobic messages. So much so that a fascist, paranoid FBI agent’s assertion that we are at war with Islam is actually more honest than Lindsey Graham’s qualification of “radical.”

And yet we think we see the truth. In simply considering what the majority of messages we receive say, we accept them by sheer number as the truth.

Seems like that was the basis for “The Big Lie.” But those people on TV seem so sincere, sound so knowledgeable, are talking to our leaders and why would they lie to us?

We think MINERVA is “research,” and not the test that it was. Damn, we’re asking to get screwed, practically begging for it.

The Age of the Multinational has come and brought with it the Age of the Psychopath.

And that’s cool and all. But could you do one favor and ask them to stop trying to recruit me?


And So It Came To Pass

When I wrote The Wisp, a story involving privatization of the intelligence community and warfare, I had thought that I was gazing down the road ten years or so. It wasn’t until the WaPo exposé Top Secret America that I realized it had already happened mostly in 2004 and 2005.

Twenty-two months ago or so, I started a “Fauxpocalypse” novel entitled Infernis. The idea behind the fake end times term, self-fulfilling prophecy can be as dangerous as, in my opinion perhaps moreso, than the supernatural. For the unfinished novel, a system that absorbs too much of those beliefs is susceptible to the same delusional thinking. Think HAL 9000 meets War Games.

Then, about 10 and a half months ago, started the sequel, Inthrallis. This one is in part based on experiences with some of those items listed in that old 1955 draft CIA MKULTRA memorandum:

11. Substances which will produce “pure” euphoria with no subsequent let-down.

12. Substances which alter personality structure in such a way that the tendency of the recipient to become dependent upon another person is enhanced.

I may expound on that later, but as I’ve noted below, the scope of the project quickly grew and before 1960 they were looking at what makes us decide to vote, child personality development, mental illness, minorities, criminals, hypnotism, means of control and altering personality, etc.

August of last year was before the MINERVA stuff made it into the news. It’s apparently gotten a nickname now, “FBULTRA,” which I think is appropriate.

The theme of Inthallis is similar in that it still circles around self-fulfilling prophecy but this time it’s a sort of anti-Christ figure. Superstition as crowd-control and flimflam predates even Judaism, so it should not be taken as an attack against religion as a whole.

Superstition and inquistion-lite are making big comebacks.


VICE, “EXORCIST REVIVAL,” Staff, 16 June 2014:

VICE, “Why the Vatican’s Recognition of Exorcism Is Important,” Kayla Ruble, 4 July 2014:

Witch Hunts:

NYTimes OpEd, “The Persecution of Witches, 21st-Century Style,” Motch Horowitz, 5 July 2014:

In some communities, it is chiefly young men who take on the role of witch hunters, suggesting that they may see it as a way to earn prestige by cleansing undesirables and enforcing social mores. That many of the self-appointed witch hunters are men highlights another baleful aspect of the phenomenon: The majority of victims are women. The Rev. Jack Urame of the Melanesian Institute, a Papua New Guinean human rights agency, estimates that witchcraft-related violence there is directed 5 to 1 against women, suggesting that witchcraft accusations are used to cloak gender-based violence.

Another factor, particularly in Central Africa and its diaspora communities, is the advent of revivalist churches, in which self-styled pastor-prophets rail against witchery and demon possession. They often claim to specialize in the casting out of evil spirits, sometimes charging for the service. Many of those congregations have emerged from Western evangelizing efforts.

Globalization means that paranoia over black magic and spirit possession are no longer confined to developing nations. Mass migration has made this a pervasive problem. In January, a Queens, N.Y., man was arrested for beating to death with a hammer his girlfriend, Estrella Castaneda, 56, and her daughter, Lina Castaneda, 25; Carlos Alberto Amarillo told the police that the women were “witches,” who had been “performing voodoo and casting spells” on him.

There’s lots more. Our ally and assistant chief shaper of foreign policy, Saudi Arabia, for example, and the UK.

Persecution of LGBTs:

MotherJones, “Meet the American Pastor Behind Uganda’s Anti-Gay Crackdown: Scott Lively has stirred up hate from Moscow to Kampala. Watch him in action,” Mariah Blake, 10 March 2014:

HuffPo, “Russia’s Anti-Gay Law Is One Of My ‘Proudest Achievements,’ Claims Pastor Scott Lively,” Gay Voices, 24 September 2013:

He also blames the Ukraine situation on gays, but then so does Putin:

The Advocate, “Putin Claims ‘Gay Nazis’ Behind Ukrainian Unrest: The Russian president takes a page out of a notorious antigay American evangelical’s playbook and claims that gay people are the cause of the current conflict in Ukraine,” Sunnivie Brydum, 16 May 2014:

The problem, the Ukraine’s neonazi movement is not Russia’s doing, but rather the US and NATO:

Global Research, “The U.S. has Installed a Neo-Nazi Government in Ukraine,” Michel Chossudovsky, 2 March 2014:

“The flowering of democracy” in Ukraine –to use the words of the New York Times– is endorsed by Republicans and Democrats. It’s a bipartisan project. Lest we forget, Senator John McCain is a firm supporter and friend of Neo Nazi Svoboda leader Oleh Tyahnybok (Image right).


And it comes back around full circle:

DailyMailUK, “Palin under fire over African pastor friend who waged witch-hunt against woman he believed caused car crashes,” Paul Thompson, 18 September 2008:

Lest you think 2016 and beyond will look any different:

Gawker, “You’ll Never Guess Hillary Clinton’s Favorite Book,” Hamilton Nolan, 16 June 2014:

NYTimes, “The Next Act of the Neocons: Are Neocons Getting Ready to Ally With Hillary Clinton?” Jacob Heilbrunn, 5 July 2014:

I really am starting to wonder about that brain injury–attributed to a fall–that Karl Rove has been accusing Hillary of having. I know, consider the source…but have some problems squaring Obama and Clinton on so many issues these days without resorting to the mind affecting tech and/or intimidation hypotheses.

MKULTRA Subproject List FOIA Updates

Especially given the recent Facebook hullabaloo *, it seems ever so timely to go through the available Freedom of Information Act releases with regards to MKULTRA and its subprojects. It is still a work in progress. In some cases, I found John Marks had more info that seemed to be available in the FOIA. In others, I found the text files CIA provided had more info. In others, the text file was nearly devoid of helpfulness and the meat was found among the documents themselves. The result is a mix of the three methods.

As you’ll see from the list, there are still several UKNOWN subprojects. We have mostly invoices and some proposals available. There are also a list of companies that I am not at all clear on their collaboration. The B&O Railroad, American Airlines, Greyhound, and J.P. Morgan, to name some. Also, lots and lots of drugs.

I’m going to hazard a guess that #18 was for a “Q-branch” style facility that got built by or under something else. Possibly with or by the Army. See 50, below.

Of particular interest, besides the aforeblogged voting decisions study under subproject 127, there are:

48: Study of Communist Police State psychology and sociology, undoubtedly so they could figure out how to import it.

50: Something that they tried to get around the Agency’s project justification process. “Just give me $500. Do not ask why.” MKNAOMI is why. Change order to the facility under 18?

54: Brain concussion as related to interrogation. “Possible to interrogate someone and they not even remember it? Let’s find out.” WHAM! “What was this subproject’s purpose again?”

Forget the threequel.

56: Alcohol consumption, absorption, at Universities. IOW, Spring Break.

57: LSD, insomnia, and you.

94: Remote direction control of living organisms.

96: Decision making.

98: Mass conversion study. Hello political upheaval.

107: Appears to be inserting individuals and cash into the WPA APA, where CIA’s Cameron was first president. Is this the MOCKINGBIRD effort in the psychiatry circles instead of journalism/media?

108: Ecological factors in natural groups. Guessing this is “Native North American” directed among other groups. You knew there had to be at least one study f—ing with those folks.

109: My favorite. How to turn an adult into a psychological adolescent or child psychopharmacologically. Adult libido, child thinking. Scott Ritter? Matt deHart? Two former fellow NJSF interns? Anthony Weiner? Others?

110: Pathogens and how to give them to people. Let me just open this…


* The New American, “Did Pentagon Help Fund Facebook’s Mood Manipulating Experiment?,” Joe Wolverton, II J.D., 2 July 2014:

Boston Flee Party

How can you be deaf with ears like that?

Jussayin’. I’m not sure what it means in total. Definitely more than one thing though.

Getting the possibly weird out of the way first:

(No, ‘Dzhokhar’ was not among my ‘D’ names).

Also, CNN email alert:

The third victim killed in the bombings was a graduate student at Boston University, a spokesman for the school said. The school declined to identify the victim further.

Turned out (again) to be an Asian student. And to think I might have run off to New York or Boston to try to find out firsthand.

Of course two data points only make a straight line, not a pattern.

Moving on from the mind games or whatever to the amateur armchair analysis. I’ll just say mostly what’s already been said.

It’s odd that Chechens do this and in the US. They don’t have quite the same history where jihad and martryism is concerned and most of their beef is with Russia.

The throat injury is so damn symbolic and/or in a way “convenient” that that is also strange.

While I would not call it evidence (who wants to think that their sons or nephews are capable of this?) both the father (in Chechnya or nearby I think) and the aunt (Toronto) say that the brothers were set up.

“Funny” that a government official (missed her name and department) said that the ’09 underwear bomber’s father couldn’t believe his son attempted what he apparently did. But wasn’t he the one who went repeatedly to the US embassy to warn them well ahead of time of Christmas 2009 about his son? Weird comment if that’s the case. Subcontractor missed his name even though he was in their database, was what I recall and the father was the source.

Also, according to Hannity on his radio show (don’t ask… guess I wanted to hear what the specific narrative coming out of the radical right might be when it was left on for me), the elder brother, the deceased one, Tamerlan, owned a radical pro-Al Qaeda website.

And yet he wasn’t being watched? See alternate reason for quote at top. You’ve gotta be kidding me. Too busy f***ing with innocent Americans, I suppose. Too much energy spent squashing whistleblowers and trying to find something to justify the invoices and the budget requests. Yeah, that must be it. *

The ricin letter sending, performer by an American Elvis impersonator, came right on the heels of the bombing. Eerily similar to 9/11 followed by the Amerithrax attacks but with less lethal effect.

Also note that this event derailed the immigration reform law vote. See how terror as distraction gets used? Who benefits? Grassley said publicly it will affect the vote. And they were close to a compromise before the bombs went off.

And it is being used (thanks to both Hannity and Dennis Miller for the info) to argue for looser gun laws or at least status quo. The idea, being trapped in your home with an allegedly armed and dangerous terrorist running around loose in your neighborhood. That was the Rightwing media’s narrative for what happened in Watertown. They got some folks who live there to talk on the radio during their “lockdown.”

You want–no, need–assault weapons to protect your home. That’s the message. And must be at least partially responsible for the failed gun control legislation (beyond the attempt to avoid filibuster by requiring a 60+ vote and the portions written by lobbyists) even if it came after. A post-vote excuse.

Too convenient on timing and narrative to not be more than a little suspicious. I’ve already explained the other reasons for it (money and affect on other policies), how it’s done (drugs, harassment, subliminals, PSYOPs), the historical precedents (MK/Ultra and false-flag ops like NORTHWOODS), the desire to lie to the populace (the intro of the CIA’s Guerilla Warfare Manual and one purpose of DoD’s INFORMATION OPERATION ROADMAP), etc. and how that all points to something like GLADIO being conducted on US soil. Given the international nature of Organized Stalking, which I believe to be partly related largely as training for those who make these kinds of things happen, things would seem to point to a multinational organization like NATO. It all kinds of fits (though note also that Russia and China undoubtedly engage in similar activities against their citizens). I don’t see the need to repeat all of that in detail.

And note how fiscal conservatism in this country only applies to programs and policies that don’t hand money over directly to defense, security and intelligence contractors, that don’t perpetuate war, fear, xenophobia. If it’s health or education related, we can’t afford it. If it kills, we not only can spend money we don’t even have, we must, or the sky will fall.

That said, it bothers me more than a little that these events get used to try to achieve things like gun reform instead of the programs simply being shut down. I guess you aim for what you think that you can achieve. That is aiming too low, IMO.

* Likely some sarcasm in that paragraph.

THE BLACK BOOT DIARIES – No Decent Title (Updated)

…only a boy, early twenties perhaps, physiologically. His face is a little lopsided, the cheekbone flatter on the left than the right. His ears are too big. He looks almost natural.

UPDATE: After further thought, I am going to reduce this to: Ryan Lanza has a similar hair style and perhaps build (don’t know how tall he is) and ears to “Janus”; also the “coincidence” that I have had the name Ryan on the brain for months (likely after the shootings took place).

Still weird, yes, but I’d say a zero chance of it having been Ryan Lanza in the store is the point.

I am leaving this up anyway. Think there are a few useful points to document even if I might not have posted it if I’d had more time to think about it and not had that strange “urge” to do so earlier today. Hard to fight subliminals when they are just using your own momentum against you.

(Well played).

(I will likely make additions and any necessary corrections over the next day or so. I’ve been tinkering with this post for hours now and am concerned it’s not as clear as it could be. Such is having your head messed with in order to confuse, it’s sometimes difficult to sort out).

Need to recap a few things. But before I proceed, let me extend my condolences to all involved in the Red Hook shooting. It it not at all my intent to diminish the seriousness of that incident. On the contrary, I am looking for the truth.

That the details are ghoulish, rather depressing, perhaps frightening means these topics are difficult to discuss even when it does not involve what I think it likely does.

Next, I need to recap some things. All or most of these details are on this blog but finding them buried perhaps hundreds of posts down wouldn’t be easy. Someone who reads regularly may or may not recall them.

This relates to the Red Hook shooting primarily, but in order to get there, I need to remind some folks of other bizarre things that happened before that.

While living in Minneapolis, I did not have cable nor even a TV. My typical means of getting news involved hitting the paper dispensers on the way to jog, scanning the headlines from front pages through the window, and then after the jog reading a paper or two and finding anything related on my mobile via WiFi or 3G.

So when Heath and I decided to go to the movies one day, my phone and/or Google suddenly decided I was not in the Twin Cities area but rather Arizona:


This was hours, I think, after the shooting that involved Democratic Member of Congress Gabrielle Giffords.

Then, the third week of August 2012, I met a fellow who I fancied a little and it turned out that his name was James (Something) Holmes. This occurred mere months after that shooting and not long after my blogging about it here on the twenty-first of July and after.

And, more recently I lamented (kind of) the fact that whoever it is that is harassing me (likely the CIA or its surrogates) had not yet used the obvious move. They had not used “Janus” as a means of attempting to drive me to violence, suicide, or at least to do something to get arrested and the f*** off of the Internet, or failing all of that, to (further?) discredit myself by sounding like a “conspiracy theorist” or a nutcase.

But I need to go back to who Janus is for a moment before proceeding.

December 8, 2009 – The Open Government Directive is released. That same day, two weeks after a similar event involving American Amy Goodman attempting to leave Canada, former marine biologist turned science fiction writer, a Canadian, had an incident on the border while headed back to Canada. This resulted in his arrest and trial. This event and the surrounding subevents are known as Squidgate. (Squid being a nickname for marine biologists).

Some days after this my comic book’s website (that had not yet been even advertised, made public) was visited by INSCOM (that’s US Army intelligence), I began noticing psychological harassment (and later realized it started in 2005 or so, depending on how you define it), and was drugged with a substance or substances unknown. Among the effects, a feeling of euphoria.

(See the MK/Ultra May 5, 1955 draft memo that survived the director’s destruction order in the back of the 1977 Senate hearing report on the subject, items 11 and 12:

11. Substances which will produce “pure” euphoria with no subsequent let-down.

12. Substances which alter personality structure in such a way that the tendency of the recipient to become dependent upon another person is enhanced.


This feeling began some days after the incident. Probably somewhere in the 13th to 19th area.

On the 23rd of December 2009, the fire at the Conway condo occurred.

Just giving some perspective. There were bomb threats and suspicious trucks at work and nearby Times Square. There was the strange heart palpitations that prevented the judge (Monoghan) from conducting the preliminary examination in the Watts border case on the day it was orginally scheduled (it got moved to the 22nd).

Then, on January 3, 2010, while sitting behind the counter at E&H Deli, around the corner from where I then lived, an odd thing occurred.

There were I think three people in line. I hardly noticed them. I was composing a letter in my head to try to get the Watts case dismissed. I was thinking Bernie Sanders might be a good recipient.

Then, wham!

I glanced up and there was a bottle on the counter near me. It had the shape of a laundry detergent bottle but was actually kitty litter.

I should note here that in my drugged and confused state, I took that as a symbol for Peter Watts himself. He rescues cats and in fact, due to being in jail when the news broke, used his PayPal donation button normally used for helping to pay cat upkeep costs for his legal defense fund.

Note that in the previous posts regarding this event I left out a few details. Convinced that, whoever this person was, he was in danger, early on I was concerned about saying too much about his appearance.

Then, later, I decided to withhold a few things in order to, like the police do, see if there might be some attempt to pull a doppelganger trick.

The person I saw closely resembled an old friend, a Parisian, except for a few details. Among them, the ears. They stuck out notably. But he had them sort of covered with his hair.

There was also the nose. Not really Wattsian, but it generally takes two to make babies. But it was larger than, let’s say, baseline. Prominent.

As I’ve also noted, when I first looked at him, there was a voice in my head (or seemed to be two) arguing over his age. “17. No, 22. 17! No, 22! 17!”

I might not have ever run across this photo if I hadn’t been asked by the Squidgate juror to try to see why her computer would not connect to certain web pages. (Running a tracert I found that after an AT&T server there was a long delay problem and then it turned to a Level-3 Communications server and just dies).

There it was. Not perfect, but damn:


Note that initial reports named Ryan instead of his younger, in-some-photos-similar-looking, brother Adam as the shooter:


Pictures of Adam Lanza do not match up much with who I saw (one of the reasons I never believed the “17” portion of that V2K message, the visitor was older, I was sure). But if his birthday was April 22, 1992, he’d have been 17 on 1/3/10. His brother may could not have been 22 (he is now 24).

I had, longtime readers may recall, taking to calling my mysterious visitor “R”. There were a number of reasons. Let’s recall drug-addled and harassed brain here, but one was Roadrunner, chosen after I was thinking of starting a blog named McCoyote, as in Wiley E. of cartoon fame.

There were other reasons as well. My guess on names included one or three that began with that letter. Ryan was one of them, though that didn’t become prominent (I had also thought of some D names) until more recently.

Yes, in my head, I’ve been calling him Ryan for months. Don’t know how many. Might have been after the shooting.

But here, like Minneapolis, I still don’t have my own cable or TV and, as you’ve likely noticed, don’t much watch anything but DVDs when I use someone else’s.

If you look at other photos of Ryan Lanza, you’ll see he tends to wear a hat to keep the ears from sticking out.

But then there’s why I took to referring to “R” as Janus in the first place. I recalled the similar build with the person I saw only eight days later hiding outside Jeremy Scahill’s place, when one of my dogs started growling at what seemed like nothing at all until he decided to come out of hiding and pretended to be throwing something away.

Same build but different facial features. It had been a disguise, I decided recently.

Now, unless it can be established that Ryan Lanza lived in Brooklyn (he now reportedly lives in Hoboken and works at Ernst & Young in midtown Manhattan), then I’m going with not him.

But nice try. At least it was at last played. Though I don’t really know what it means.

I’m under the impression that there’s more of this “you have ESP” nonsense going on. With V2K, we all kinda do. So, not a threat to national security because of mind-reading ability, folks, sorry.

Merely someone who knows beyond a doubt that there is some fairly sinister s*** going on and it includes some form of remote, electronic mind control or hypnosis via subliminals of some kind.

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