Small Update

First, I added the now MIA at their website US News & World Report article about CIA’s child kidnapping ring known as The Finders. As it turns out, they were taking toddlers to Saudi Arabia to be diddled by members of the House of Saud who were so inclined. The article is here and the FOIA can be found over here in PDF.

Second is what is perhaps my favorite interview of all time. Jeremy Scahill interviews historian Alfred McCoy * about the fall of the US Empire, the CIA trafficking drugs and how mainstream media lied to help cover it up {and CIA continues to even though the missing paragraphs proving Gary Webb correct are available elsewhere}, among other goodies. Perhaps most timely, a rundown on how many foreign elections the United States meddled in during the last half of the 20th century. I think the number will surprise you.

Jeremy Scahill, “Donald Trump and the Coming Fall of the American Empire,” The Intercept, 22 July 2017:

Third, if you follow the Twitter and are wondering where a new piece is, I’m still collating data. Also, I prefer to know what two, three or four outcomes the enemy is hoping for before taking action so as to avoid falling into one of their traps. Suffice it to say that there’s been a LOT of crazy around these parts recently.

* Via tag you will find a vague reference to a quote by Dr. McCoy posted during my brief tenure at the University of Illinois at Chicago stay in Chicago in late 2013, early 2014 which includes photos from my visit to Dr. James C. Lin, who had the good sense to not be in his office when I came a’knockin’ to ask about his microwave and audio work with CIA and DoD and why Carlyle Group was investing in headphones to be marketed to African-Americans.

I believe the McCoy quote was, when repeated to me years ago, taken out of context. For one, there was a difference of opinion in CIA when some were hoping there was some sort of Soviet or Chinese “magic” with regards to mind control. There was not. However, despite CIA’s spotlighting the bad science portions they spent money on during MK Ultra, even finding out that, and that, for example, schizophreniclike symptoms can be induced in people with isolation and trauma alone, is useful information for a corrupt institution like CIA.

In any case, Dr. McCoy understands keenly the cyberspace and outer space issues, as you’ll read or hear in the interview. It’s just a small step to get to behavioral modification, and we’re already seeing some MSM news on “improving soldiers.”

Gary Webb Redux: The LGBT Community and Meth

They’re animals, so let them lose their souls.

It is my considered opinion that the Central Intelligence Agency targets the LGBT community with crystal meth in much the same way that it targeted poor black communities with crack cocaine. This latter was reported on by Gary Webb. While Mr. Webb did not accuse the US government of institutional racism and bigotry {some of the large papers that, when push comes to shove, tow the line for the Military Industrial Complex like the Washington Post accused him of it, however}, I am. I will explain why below.


First, of course, the crack cocaine epidemic. The CIA used profits from selling it domestically for black bag operations that were off the books. That is, these were operations and programs that they did not believe they had to report to Congress because the funding was not coming from taxes but rather the exploitation of poor neighborhoods, predominantly African American, in California. This worked, CIA was never punished for this, and it continued after Webb’s reporting on the topic and tracing the money and drugs from Central America to the US.

The result domestically was also that politicians got to “take a stand” against drugs and demonize those who sold it and used it as “super predators.” The stigma remains today as does the high incarceration rate resulting from a CIA operation.

And let us not forget the lengths CIA went to experimenting drugs on human beings under MK/Ultra and other programs using initially the former Nazi scientists brought in under PAPERCLIP, BLOODSTONE, etc. Nor how, for example, notorious gangster James ‘Whitey’ Bulger got 15 years knocked off a prison sentence for agreeing to be one such guinea pig.


In small farming communities in the US it is often made domestically. Chemicals used on some farms can cover for the purchase of materials necessary to make crystal meth.

However, in Maricopa County, Arizona, it is smuggled in from Mexico. More specifically, the state of Sinaloa, which is where El Chapo and his cartel were located. El Chapo who miraculously escaped several times, once reportedly via a long tunnel about which there is a conspiracy theory that the tunnel was not actually completed but rather Guzman’s CIA handlers released him and used the tunnel as a media stunt to cover up the method of release. Why not? In any case, it comes from the Mexican Cartel located there.


I’ve met probably a few hundred people who currently use or were addicted in the past to crystal meth in the year and a quarter living here. Predominantly, probably 65% are gay men. There’s probably another 10-15% that engage in some form of homosexual activity even though their preference may be for females. While it is not reportedly as addictive as crack cocaine, crystal meth is clearly highly addictive. The lengths many of these current addicts will go to to get that fix makes this clear.

Much like the mythical pull-yourself-up-by-your-own-bootstraps mantra, officials in the US indicate that simply saying no to drugs is the way to get off them. In civilized countries, it is considered an illness to be addicted, and is treated via healthcare. Emphasis on civilized.

As I’ve noted time and again, the point is to keep us distracted, divided, and fighting among ourselves lest we band together and demand universal healthcare and income. The CIA, and whenever I say that now I also mean the counter-intelligence division of the FBI, they are essentially the same thing, Eisenhower’s fear of a domestic secret “police” has been realized, serves the interests not of the People but of the multinational corporations and that means keeping social nets and benefits as low as possible. As the profits continue to break records, so does the multinationals’ power and influence; it is the snowball, growing in size and increasing momentum, until it overwhelms anything and anyone in its way. To distract from this requires “bad guys” to point a finger at and who better than minorities and those suffering from one form of illness or another? People outside the mainstream make easy targets, as we’ve seen with the transgender bathroom nonsense recently.

As a further reminder of the connection between the CIA and the Mexican Cartels, I point the reader again to the story of Mike and Gary, and how it was that former CIA officer Gary came to be in the cartel’s employ.

The History of Slime, or, You’re Next, Sister

As noted below, this is mostly an expansion on the previous post, in this case magnifying power’s practice of demonizing groups for its own selfish ends. We really need to start considering the huge implications of 21st Century COINTELPRO, MHCHAOS and how, when these programs are active, things really are not often what they seem.


Probably the famous/infamous case of maligning an entire group of people is that of anti-Semitism. But where did the “Jewish conspiracy” originate?

From a forgery, a book called The Protocols of the Meetings of the Learned Elders of Zion, first printed in Russia in 1903. Henry Ford printed 500,000 copies in the US in the 1920s and Hitler made it standard in schools starting in 1933 despite having been exposed as a forgery in 1921.

Though anti-Semitism predated the book, it gave anti-Semite groups something to hold up as evidence of evil intent by Jews the world round. This sometimes persists even today.


Though the FOX crowd loves to point out how long ago the Civil War was, etc. the problems associated with racial bigotry continued far later. The best example is, after WWII, both the Veterans Administration and Housing & Urban Development gave white veterans inexpensive housing. African American veterans were denied this and essentially sent to ghettos.

This is where two noxious myths came from. The first, whites pulling themselves up by their own bootstraps when it was really a social program. The other being that war is good for the middle class. It was, in that very narrow sense, only because the wealthy and corporations were taxed at would-blow-Bill-O’Reilly’s-mind levels. This was not just a result of paying down the war debt, but was widely accepted as a way of preventing another Great Depression.

The irony here can be found in both myths. The anti-reparations crowd really doesn’t get that they have benefited from white “reparations” after WWII. The pro-war crowd has disconnected itself from taxation and redistribution of wealth downwards in order to maintain a healthy society.

It only gets worse from there. The reporting of the late Gary Webb, though often maligned also as saying something he didn’t, that is it was an act of racism as well as greed, was probably accurate. We can see the same where Afghanistan and Honduras are concerned. Stealing the heroin from Russia and then increasing the output while running death squads and maintaining military bases after ousting Zelaya makes that pretty clear. Lest you think this is all about the US, it isn’t. Investors in Honduras infrastructure include China, Japan, the UK, and some EU countries.

Given all that, it seems not only likely that it was more kicking of the poor while they’re down, but also much, much larger and systematic than when Webb reported on it. We are not only the real power behind the big drug cartels, we also coddle international banks who launder their money and fund terrorism. This is why so many stories about the minutiae are for many purposes a waste of time to write and read. If you cannot see the big picture, what’s the point of arguing about one or two of a thousand symptoms of the same disease that is power and its tendency to abuse?

This is all about power; not party or philosophy. Purely mercenary and selfish, it is foolhardy to look for power figures who oppose what they clearly all support.

For example, though the Clintons like to brag about getting 1 million people off of welfare, there are several things that do not really indicate that this was necessarily a good thing. Where do the people who cannot eat and cannot find a job wind up? Automation, outsourcing overseas, and productivity, AKA overworking people, mean that there aren’t enough jobs to go around, and due to higher demand, don’t pay enough to rescue the economy from itself.

Then there is support from the private prison industry for Hillary right now. We are the most imprisoned country per capita on the planet. Is it any wonder when there is money to be made that this happened?

The system itself creates situations where the choices are bad and worse. And so lots of people wind up circling the drain and getting labeled as “Superpredators,” a term Hillary Clinton herself used referring to African American teens.

Then you have Barack Obama who, as I stated in the previous post–and this one is really a continuation of that one–released 600 prisoners and didn’t even make a dent in the statistics. We incarcerate more than that in a day.

Identity politics, though less offensive than Trump’s blatant racist remarks or Cruz’ friends’ calls for internment camps for atheists, is in effect the same without the insult added to the injury. At least on the larger scale; I’m quite certain that there are those who work for them engage in the same kind of bigoted language. The assumption that because candidate X is this or that means that they will favor this or that is a false one.

Trump’s comments serve to draw voters to Hillary and drive voters to the GOP at the same time. Dividing us is the goal here, lest half of us show up in the Financial District in Manhattan, the other half on the Mall in DC, demanding a new New Deal.


Horrific education, a favorite thing to get cannibalized in order to shove money instead to places where it seems to wind up in the pockets of politicians, bureaucrats, bankers and brokers, has lead to an unbelievably ignorant public. Most don’t know the simplest things about Islam. How much worse when they don’t even get reminded where Al Qaeda and the Taliban came from?

Surveys also show that people who do not know any Muslims personally are more likely to think they are all violent and prone to terrorism. We can call this the ‘boogeyman’ effect and leave it there, I suppose. In war, and this is a war of a kind, more financial than cultural despite what you would read in right- and leftwing leaning outlets alike, demonizing the other side is part of it. This is where most of it comes from.

But, there is a problem. Though the most recent big news attack {as far as I know, I’m busy writing this right now}, the one in San Bernardino, did involve a couple who were Muslim. And despite stories like this one, where the real motive may have been to rob a train {something so-called fiscal conservatives and war hawks alike can understand and get behind: Piracy}, it’s the meme, the image that sticks with most people. Think of it this way:

“News said another shooting was done by a Muslim or a black. Lesson: Avoid Muslims and blacks.”

We are a pattern-matching-for-survival species, and that is what happens in the heads of many people. The nuances, the root problems, the specifics, don’t matter to them. Simpler to avoid and either allow, or push, leaders to spy on all these people and limit their freedoms. Never mind the specifics indicate that it doesn’t help, that these WASPs are also included in these dragnets, and that the potential for financial, personal and political abuse is not only likely but already reported on in some instances.


While my story is complicated in many ways, the bottom line is they hoped, and still hope, to push me to violence in order to both silence me on being a witness to illegal activities and to start building the same kind of “forgery” that implicates gays in the same way that they have done to African Americans and Muslims. That’s it.

And despite what you might see on the cover of OUT magazine’s anniversary issue {could you imagine putting Reagan, who appointed one SSM justice, or Cheney, who supported SSM before Obama and Clinton, on that cover?}, Barack Obama and the people who work for him were all on board with that. Clearly. It is impossible that it could be otherwise. See either Wicked Game or my IAMA on Reddit for more on that.

This is why I say we cannot afford to elect another Republican {nor stealth-GOP Libertarians} nor Democrat {nor “Independent” Bernie Sanders who counts FBI and CIA, with two of the worst civil and human rights records in US history as social programs} to be elected.

That leaves Green Party for me. As far as voting goes, the only hope I see–and it will not be a panacea by any means–is to get third parties their 10% of the vote in order to start breaking the stranglehold that the two thoroughly corrupt parties and their false choices present.

The political spectrum looks like this:


Where, wedged just between the D and R, is Hitler. They’ve so filled our heads with left-dread, that we now see anything near the center, much less to the left of it and less far than these two are to the very far right, as some terrifying thing that must be avoided.

I’m terrified now, aren’t you? And they’ve had it all for a long time. We can do better, but only if we get desperate enough to stop choosing the lesser perceived weasel.


A Brief on the Evolution of Assassination and Poisoning

Let us begin with the delivery mechanisms of our substances from the Cold War. There were two primary forms.

The first was up close and personal. In order to accomplish this, they hired stage magician John Mulholland under MKULTRA subprojects 4, 15 and 34.

See “Prick” for further background on that coming out of the Canadian McGill University lawsuit against the US and Canadian governments for human experimentation research.

The second we learned of from the Church/Tower hearings regarding the “M-1” device which attached to normal weapons and could fire micro-organisms or substances at targets in two ways, one of which would leave the target unaware that he or she had been fired upon at all. “Prick II.”

But what are we to put into our needle delivery devices? There’s the possibility of the over 140 drugs tested on human subjects under MKULTRA, ARTICHOKE, BLUEBIRD, etc. {though many of those were tested for interrogation and brainwashing purposes}:



And then there was MKOFTEN, with a few references to it in the Family Jewels:



You’ll note database references to both drug side-effects, in this case pharmaceuticals, as well psychological effects. CIA was compiling a playbook whereby evoking particular effects would be possible for a number of purposes.

But all or most of that has become irrelevant. Again, the 1999 FOIA document from the US Army on bio-effects of microwaves:

There is, however, a growing perception that microwave irradiation and exposure to low frequency fields can be involved in a wide range of biological interactions. Some investigators are even beginning to describe similarities between microwave irradiation and drugs regarding their effects on biological systems.

And you have your “drug” and your delivery system all rolled up into one. Various “modalities” can be used for a wide range of effects, some of which I documented here under the microwave section, and more recently here and especially here complete with a few examples of how it could have been used. Depression, anger, sleepiness, sleeplessness, confusion, and a lot more, including causing real disease by affecting the blood-brain barrier, can be invoked in a human being using a microwave weapon.

Since it is also nearly or completely untraceable it likewise becomes very, very attractive to the would-be assassin or psyop operative seeking to create a false consensus about a particular individual or group by embarrassing them publicly. Unchecked, this technology which the government has certainly shown ample interest in, is a threat to freedom, to a healthy republic, and human health in general.

And yet we cannot talk about it openly because of the implicit connection to “tinfoil hat.” We assume that there would be checks and balances, despite ample evidence that there are little or no checks and that things are incredibly unbalanced. We forget that any time the CIA commits a crime and it involves state secrets, the Department of Justice has a longstanding agreement not to prosecute.

[CIA General Counsel Lawrence] Houston stressed that deliberate exposure of the MK/ULTRA program by essentially offering it to the press would serve to placate the brewing feeding frenzy over so-called mind control projects, and would divert any investigative attempts into the multi-faceted Artichoke Project.

Houston additionally explained to Rumsfeld and Cheney that, along with the release of MK/ULTRA details to the media, the names of a few former CIA employees, such as Dr. Sidney Gottlieb, would also be released to the press. Incredibly, when the subject of possible federal prosecutions of CIA officials for capital crimes and felonies, such as murder and drug trafficking, came up in their discussion, Houston informed Rumsfeld and Cheney that there was little cause for concern.

Explained the Agency’s General Counsel, since early 1954, following the death of Army biochemist Frank Olson, a secret agreement between the CIA and the U.S. Department of Justice had been put in place whereby the violation of “criminal statutes” by CIA personnel would not result in Department of Justice prosecutions, if “highly classified and complex covert operations” were threatened with exposure. The agreement had been struck between Houston and Deputy Attorney General William P. Rogers in February 1954, not long after Frank Olson’s death, and still remained solidly in place.

Jeffrey Kaye and HP Albarelli Jr., “Cries From the Past: Torture’s Ugly Echoes,” Truthout, 23 May 2010:

A reminder about what happened to Frank Olson. He witnessed MI6 testing deadly nerve toxins on UK soldiers and sought counseling with a CIA psychiatrist. Once the psychiatrist notified Gottlieb that one of his own had grown a conscience, Gottlieb arranged a secret meeting at which half the people were supposedly drugged with LSD, Olson included. It was later discovered that Olson may have been given something else, which resulted in a psychological breakdown. Once in NYC for further counseling, CIA had George Hunter White and “Pierre Lafitte” throw Olson out a window and sold the whole thing as a suicide.

And so it all festers, grows, leading us to the disturbing stasi-state of perpetual lies and warfare that we have today. How do we break out of this cycle? Someone has to step up.

As a bonus, you’ll note ‘drug trafficking’ bolded in the quote above along with murder, eg assassination. DEA, like FBI, is in the DoJ. Are poor white Southerners the next ‘market’ for Deep State’s drug running?

Holly Fletcher, “Overdose deaths reach ‘epidemic proportions’,” Tennessean, 28 September 2015:

And opioids are made from what?

AFP/Business Insider, “A record Afghan opium output has increased the supply of cheap heroin in the US,” 26 June 2015:

Whether it’s prescription or ‘horse,’ Afghanistan is the gift that keeps on giving to the criminal elite.

Central Intelligence Agency: The Para-Doxxing

A long string of tweets beginning with the link below presenting a tapestry of behavior that explains many, many things, beginning with why people fight amongst themselves, never seem to get the government that they want.

Several guest stars, including some newspapers who print the words of people who have consistently gotten things wrong, politicians who cannot make words and deeds meet, and even a popular pontiff and so much more. Observe as reality shows that the public interest is consistently violated by an Agency out of control.

You’re welcome.


The Mind Killers

Yet another {the previous find being related to the Blood-Brain Barrier} microwave bio-effects paper with inadvertent non-lethal weapon applications:

Martin L. Pall, “Microwave frequency electromagnetic fields (EMFs) produce widespread neuropsychiatric effects including depression,” 21 August 2015:

Much of it related to excessive calcium being a problem.
They even give it a name: “Microwave Syndrome.” Let’s review just a few people likely to have been victims of some kind of weapon based on this old and new research.

Rex Niles – Whistleblower for crimes of the military industrial complex turned poster boy for tinfoil hat:

Kim Murphy, “Figure in Kickbacks Alleges Bizarre Plot by U.S. to Kill Him,” Los Angeles Times, 17 April 1988:

Instead, he is living in a suburban home outside Los Angeles, sleeping under a makeshift foil tent fashioned to block the microwaves he believes are killing him. By night, he scrutinizes the heavens above his back yard for a sign of the mini-nuclear reactor that he says is generating the X-rays that pierce his skull.

Aaron Swartz – Showed statistically that legal decisions made by courts have been for decades becoming more and more against the public interest and in favor of multinational corporations. Committed suicide after another attempt to do similarly with what some in The Internet’s Own Boy claim was a second run at that with different, newer data. Note that this is even more obvious when you consider that JSTOR’s pay model prevents Joe Citizen reading about decisions being made that affect every aspect of his life.

Similarly, science and psychology papers aren’t always in public view and they often relate to how humans can be brainhacked. It’s all rather one, isn’t it?

Gary Webb – Showed that CIA was running drugs into the US in order to fund overseas operations. Also important to note that mostly African-American neighborhoods were targeted for sales of same including especially the very, very addictive crack cocaine.

Backing up a little, this helps to try to erase the fact that white veterans were given inexpensive housing after WWII while the VA and HUD denied black vets that same and other services that allowed white vets to send their kids to college and otherwise do things with their money that gave the illusion of having pulled themselves up by their own bootstraps. This was socialism, pure and simple, and also explains where the deception that war does a country good came from. The Deep State no longer requires bribing white Americans in order to operate; now it manipulates, frightens, intimidates, ruins anyone who questions its criminality. Mostly, it pits various groups against each other who would be better served working together for mutual benefits.

Donald Friedman whose FOIA requests lead to the Army giving up that it has interest in these NLWs and their applications.

There’s another whose name I’ve forgotten and for whom I’ve been unable to find a trace of on the Internet anymore. He was a US ambassador to Saudi Arabia. He blew the whistle on the fact that the House of Saud had slaves, most disturbingly child sex slaves, and that the US was well aware of this. He seemed to go quite crazy, IIRC. He had blog posts that started with what he had witnessed and then turned to a lot a religious talk. This reminded me of Stanley Milton Glickman who was dosed with LSD and perhaps something else by CIA officers in Paris.

If someone has a broken leg, do you become afraid of them? Not likely. Then why do we become afraid of people with sprained brains?

More on that in the post on Optimism Bias and the evolutionary human need for religion, if I ever get around to writing it. In the meantime, your moment of the erosion between reality and the coming dystopian nightmare:

Mugdha Variyar, “Saudi Arabia to head UN human rights panel; Twitterati criticise move citing beheadings, Raif Badawai flogging,” IB Times India Edition, 21 September 2015:

BBD – Going With the Gut

“Yes, stand a little out of my sun.”
–Diogenes, in one of several attempts to tell the conqueror Alexander the Great politely to go f— himself, after being asked if there was anything he could do for the philosopher.

There are a few things on the backburner right now. One is a follow-up to the post about Jason Leopold uncovering that the Obama administration bases its actionable domestic intel on FOX News and warmongering think tanks in attempting to paint African-Americans as terrorists. Since then, there have been several new articles mentioning other think tanks doing similar, including one where a UK stinker suggests that conspiracy theorists may join ISIS. Between you and me, there’s a rumor going around that this guy likes to draw derogatory pictures of Mohammed in his spare time. But far be it from me to repeat gossip.

There is some overlap with this post regarding this overall phenomenon–think tanks make up reasons for more contracts, contracts get issued, money is flushed down the toilet and some of it makes its way back into the grubby hands of politicians–albeit only in the intended effect. I’ll explain at the end.

Though there were a few limited instances of weird mood, etc. after Plamegate, it wasn’t until Squidgate that, for example, my ex told my best friend behind my back that he was considering having me committed. I’ve detailed that in Wicked Game, even entitled a chapter regarding it and tried to explain the tortured logic of some emails and other actions I’d taken. Starting at about the middle or a little after of December 2009, my behavior altered somewhat dramatically.

I cannot place a date on when things went back to something resembling normal. This was and is more of a process than an event, and that came in spurts, setbacks, repeat. It’s something I’ve been reluctant to discuss, lest it invite a relapse.

Is it possible? Some background.


The MKULTRA draft goals memo dated 5 May 1955:

1. Substances which will promote illogical thinking and impulsiveness to the point where the recipient would be discredited in public.

5. Materials which will produce the signs and symptoms of recognized diseases in a reversible way so that they may be used for malingering, etc.

What is item 1 referring to? Seems pretty obvious. Character assassination of witnesses, whistleblowers, journalists, activists and others who might question or reveal the massive cash cow scam that NATSEC has become.

And item 5? The ability to harass and make bankrupt the same kinds of people by making them and their doctors believe that they have some disease or other.

Next, let’s discuss briefly Dr. E. Fuller Torrey. Torrey was quoted by the New York Times as describing Oscar Ortega-Hernandez as “classic schizophrenia” after the latter took some shots at the White House with a rifle some years back.

What Torrey neglected to mention was that he once worked at St. Elizabeth’s in Washington, DC, and that St E’s was once home to MKULTRA research. More recently, St. E’s was investigated by the Department of Justice for reports of violent behavior involving the patients there. A report was issued citing remedies for malpractice.

Further, Dr. T. forgot to mention that he subscribes to the theory that schizophrenia is not genetic, but biological in nature. That is, some substance or pathogen is responsible though susceptibility may involve some genetic factors.

Is this possible? Let’s see what some psych articles might tell us about it. You don’t have to click them, I’ll summarize the point.

Dale Archer MD, “Gut Bacteria Transplant: A New Treatment for Anxiety?” Psychology Today, 24 September 2013:

Emily Deans MD, “Schizophrenia and the Gut: Intestinal inflammation is linked to major mental illness,” Psychology Today, 21 September 2012:

The idea, working backwards, is that anxiety, depression, and even schizophrenia are related to neurochemical imbalances in the brain. In the latter case, there are opposing camps that state an over abundance of dopamine or serotonin are to blame.

But where do these chemicals come from? From the digestion process. Bacteria that aid digestion produce chemicals to the brain. Some varieties produce neurotransmitters and that may cause this chain reaction that ends up at emotional and/or psychological problems.

As I’ve been quite fond of pointing out, typically our brain chemistry determines our emotional state, and then we decide why that might be by looking around to see why. It’s the reverse of what we tend to think it is, at least under normal circumstances.

The suggestion is that severe trauma may trigger the dying off of certain bacteria and therefore the promotion of others that generate the chemicals. This may explain why, per the US Government’s own brainwashing document, isolation and trauma can result in hallucinations and other schizophreniclike symptoms. There is a hot debate right now, though neither Obama nor any other POTUS will end it despite flowery rhetoric, that solitary confinement can cause the same kinds of problems. We are literally creating mental illness and intentionally so in order to perpetuate the for-profit prison system on the macro level and to allow sadists to enjoy themselves on the micro one; just like the torture program.

But back to the point, are we all looking at the world with gut-bug-colored glasses? Has this mystery been solved to the point that this information can be used by spooks in order to achieve nefarious goals? Can you cause depression to the point that people like Gary Webb, Aaron Swartz, and Sandra Bland might succumb to it? This theory both competes and overlaps with the MKOFTEN study of pharma side effects one I’ve discussed in the past.

At any rate, I guess I know what it’s like to an extent. I’ve tried using several metaphors in the past, none of which really live up to the experience.

One was sort of like being trapped inside your own head and only able to communicate your thoughts via jokes, poetry, symbols, song lyrics–the words of others. The ability to form coherent trains of thought or to verbalize what is going on is crippled. See again item 1 above.

Another time I suggested dropping a cement block on your foot and attempting to do algebra while still in excruciating pain. While that gets close, I think it may not last long enough for the layman to get it.

Perhaps this new one may help. Move your workplace into a van or other vehicle. Drive to a location where there is a jackhammer in use. Try to get some work done only while the jackhammer is going. You might actually be able to get a few things done with practice. However, you will be incredibly exhausted due to the level of concentration required. You won’t be able to keep it up for long, and your work will suffer.

In any case, the how may go back to MKULTRA again and The CIA Manual of Trickery and Deception, also known as Mulholland’s Manual or the “Magic Manual” in the list of subprojects. The methods and means have likely improved since then.


But on to the next point regarding personal experience. I have also written about having been poisoned. I referred to it as “poison lite”: Not so serious that hospitalization was required, but I had to sleep sitting up for fear of drowning in my own vomit.

This began at the end of March of 2012 and continued for several weeks, after seeming to go away just long enough that I dared eat a full meal again. In any case, I wound up feeling as though my digestive tract had shut down. I started munching on two or three different probiotic products {these are for replenishing bacteria that aid in digestion} and yogurt {which also contain some of that}, and eventually felt more normal.

The side-effect: A chronic cough that is related to digestion. But as time has rolled on by, I haven’t had anything like what someone might refer to as episodes either.

Is it possible that the “poison” was doing just what I thought it was, and the purpose was to get rid of whatever dopamine- and/or serotonin-enhancing bacteria I may have been slipped in December of 2009? Was that horrible experience a purging of the bad gut bugs?

Now we get to the why. The timeline {if you are a target of any kind you should compile one} makes it clearer. While I was awaiting some fate or other in Minneapolis, my ex got married in November of 2011. As noted, it would have been nearly impossible to have repaired that relationship being schizo-lite, confused, and unable to verbalize my situation even if I had understood it. So they waited until it was clearly too late to start the “cure.”

The purpose, then, to make me realize what they had done in the hopes of driving me to violence. This in turn would be used so that some think tanks could claim that LGBTQetc are more likely to become terrorists than others. You’ll also note the likelihood of doing similarly with the mentally ill.

That is why. This is how.

This is really happening. As you can see, had I obliged them and done as they required–that is gone postal or whatever some place–an interesting question could be raised, though it wouldn’t be until 50 years from now. How much of this would have been my fault and how much the fault of those who harassed, drugged, etc. me? Where does “free will” end and human sockpuppetry begin?

You cannot entirely call it false flag in this case, can you? False flag implies party A performed an operation and party B was blamed for it. In this case, both party A and B are involved.

This is the world we live in now. One where ignorance is encouraged so that power can increase the value of its own knowledge. So that the NATSEC industry can create boogeymen upon which to profit on the one hand and to distract us and the media with on the other. It is times like these when I start to wonder if Wicked Game isn’t going to have a happy ending.