BBD: COIN-Cidence {Updated}

“This is a rich man’s war and I don’t want any part of it.”
—Some poor sod, unfortunate enough to be alive when the War Between the States broke out, but smart enough to at least see part of the big picture, when writing to a friend


Just a list of the bizarre places/times I’ve sometimes found myself. Need to remind people again, I had nothing to do with any of these things beyond what is stated here, was merely used as scapegoat where applicable.

Context is everything. This is why when something else happens it becomes very difficult to determine what is normal life and what is covert action. That is at least in part the idea, to turn a target like myself against myself psychologically.

In the interests of brevity and simplicity, I’m not linking up any of this or including backup, evidence, etc. It’s all here in other posts, in Wicked Game, or in my possession.

1989/1990: Worked as a temp. Wound up working at Philip Morris on the shareholders meeting multimedia preparation team not long before tobacco hearings wound up causing a large shift in the board of directors.

1997/1998: The company I worked for, Professional Service Industries, Inc. {PSI} was bought by Mitt Romney’s Bain Capital. Our office was closed soon after as the main project wound down.

Late September/Early October 2001: Saw suspicious characters walking about near Gracie Mansion. Reported it and saw the response to my call.

12 October 2001: Saw Tom Brokaw at lunch at midtown restaurant with some interns. Saw he was trying to reassure them. Checked the web, saw that the Amerithrax attack on NBC had just occurred. An attempt to blame these attacks on Al Qaeda and/or Iraq will ensue. FBI director Mueller, who only took over a week before 9/11, resisted the pressure to rush to judgement by CIA and various neocons in the Bush White House. It will be determined later that it was most likely the work of Bruce Ivins, who in some ways has several uncanny similarities to Frank Olson. Olson, who worked for the US Army and CIA was allegedly murdered in the 1950s because he felt guilty about being involved as an observer in a deadly nerve gas test conducted by MI6. Olson became unstable and either jumped or was thrown out of a hotel window. Ivins, like Olson, worked at Fort Detrick and became unstable. The motive for the attacks is alleged to have been Ivins paranoia that terrorists would conduct anthrax attacks and the US was unprepared for it.

Matt Dehart claims he had evidence in the form of electronic documents from an unknown member of the hacker collective Anonymous that FBI was investigating CIA for attempting to place responsibility for the Amerithrax attacks on others. Matt’s trial is scheduled to begin on 8 December, though the Department of Justice is doing so via other charges. Matt also says he was drugged and tortured while in Canada seeking asylum. Note that just before the board determining his status made their decision, the son of one board member “went postal.”

2003/2004: A man who worked for a private defense and intelligence firm founded in 1917, Booz Allen Hamilton, was in my social circle for a time. His wife worked at the UN.

2003: Worked on a project in Helmsley Building for owner/landlord where one partner of owner company, Adam Hockfelder, wound up going to prison for fraud. My work was exclusively for the other partner, Richard N. Kalikow. Wound up getting myself removed from that project when it was clear there was shifting of money around between projects that had different investors. However, the amounts were less than 7 figures from what I could tell. Knew nothing of Hockfelder’s doings until it made the news.

2007-2008: Worked on a very fictional graphic novel script based partially on investigative reporter Jeremy Scahill’s work on Blackwater and more generally privatization including the fire department. Didn’t discover until much later that Scahill and my partner and I were neighbors. Also later discovered that yet another Booz Allen Hamilton employee lived in my condo building.

13 November 2008: One of my firm’s clients, John Paulson {not to be confused with Hank} of Paulson & Co., testified before Congress regarding the hedge fund hearings and bailouts.

September to November 2009: Worked on the so-called Ground Zero Mosque, or Cordoba House. More recently discovered that it had FBI/CIA backing and was likely staged as a wedge issue for the 2008 and 2010 elections.

October 2009: After writing and publishing what was to be the first of very fictional a mini-series comic in which the antagonist was an Ayn Rand follower type, my local comic book store was robbed. On top of the trashed mess the robbers left on the counter was a copy of my book. The owners wondered if I weren’t therefore somehow involved.

14 January 2010: My boss’ PC was hit with a worm and various trojans originating from Ford Motor Co. in Deerborn, Michigan. It is so bad that the hard drive is unusable. This follows closely on the heels of the alleged Chinese hacks of Fortune 500 companies including Google where my then partner worked. Note that before moving to operations, I was the IT manager so the attack, even though my boss thinks he clicked on a phony Classmates link, reflects badly on me.

15 January 2010?: My firm was asked by building management to expedite certain areas of the building for a building wide project. In one of these spaces the People’s Bank of China was the tenant. My co-worker and I were ushered out by several BoC employees who were moving us out in tandem.

29 January 2010: Completely fed up with the incessant and ever increasing psychological harassment–and after asking the government to put an end to it–I donated money to Wikileaks in protest. This was before Private Manning’s arrest but after the point where the government claims she began shopping documents around. I was of course completely oblivious to all of that until it made the news.

8 January 2011: When in Minneapolis doing a Google search to see if there were any movies a friend and I could go to, Google incorrectly listed my location as Arizona. This is the day Jared Lee Loughner shot 19 people.

Fall 2012: Went to a party and hit it off with a 26 year old young man whose name turned out to be James {Something other than Eagan} Holmes. Next time I saw him, he was “busy” with a looks-like-Eff-Bee-Eye guy who left the party soon after. This is eerily similar to events that lead to my one and only suicide attempt back in the 80s. The same day, a 62 year old man fell in love with me.

February-September 2013: Worked as a security guard one day a week at a plant owned by Koch Industries. This was surprising because I had, in the hopes of escaping the harassment I had endured for months at that point, run a PSYOP against Koch lobbyists in 2010 pretending that I had something to do with Hockfelder’s prosecution {again, I did not and the harassment continued}. Soon after putting in my notice, a problem at the plant lead me to think it was sabotage. More recently when I learned more about it, it seemed likely that STUXNET was used. This was during one of the allegedly Koch-engineered government shutdowns.

May 2014: When meeting with a woman who is to appear in court for a sanity/competency hearing to determine if she is to become a ward for the state {think of it as a permanent private prison sentence without the cell but all the subcontractors taking her disability income}, the man who is driving her, me, and one other man explains that he was present at the Bundy Ranch standoff. Senator Reid referred to them as domestic terrorists.

As you can see, there’s a pattern of scapegoating there. This has grown, via the destruction of my life and other events and forms of harassment, to an attempt to drive me to violence of some kind. Just as the government and private think tanks try to label all sorts of minorities as terrorists, they hoped to add LGBT to the list. Our system is that mercenary. What you see here, in Wicked Game, and  on Twitter, etc. is me fighting back. Simple as that.


BBD – A Spookwork Orange

…because nothing rhymes with orange.

And worth repeating:

“That stained glass curtain that you’re hiding behind never let’s in the Sun.”

This is going to be another mash-up. I will provide some insight into the psychology of the covert field agent based on my experience as a target and explain how this is bad for America. In the same post here, I will also add some new information with regards to Wicked Game, in this case what I have in Chapter 13 regarding my work as a real estate consultant in New York City.

In early 2010, Brooklyn had to my eye turned into a spook free-for-all. While it is impossible to be 100% accurate as to what/who was, and wasn’t, there were a few that I think were very apparent. As I noted there, there was a man whom I nicknamed ‘Balding’ who I saw on a few occasions, all but once in Brooklyn, the exception being the doctor’s appointment where my then-partner wanted to get me on some anti-psychotic drug or similar. ‘Balding’ seemed to me to be the boss or supervisor of a few others, primarily Anthony and his roommate who rented the condo above the one my partner owned. Anthony and the other guy made a lot of noise. There was the time I saw them moving in and they broke the door that served as the primary means of egress in case of fire–apart from jumping from the balcony or getting stuck in the parking garage–for our half of the building. The condo board was oddly in no hurry to fix this and became angry with me for requesting the they do so after days of the door being inoperable. This was all in a time of fire in a borough that was reeling from several arsons–including the one that claimed the home of my friend Kate Conway and her father.

Aside from Anthony and ‘Balding’ there quite a few others. A few doppelgangers which I’ve noted elsewhere, most of whom were not very exact in their resemblance with one exception, a younger double for Larry Johnson sitting in a car one evening wearing sunglasses.

But the real pains-in-the-ass were, for some reason, mostly young women. I’m going to take a guess that they over-did things in order to seek approval of the man’s world in which they found themselves working. They were really extremely impolite and overzealous in their harassment, and as I’ve noted a few posts below, almost certainly aware that I had been drugged and therefore even more frazzled at what a person under normal circumstances would consider one odd event if they had witnessed only that one.

The most blatant was a woman–not young, don’t know what her excuse was–mocking me, what I was saying on the phone to my ex-partner, while I was on the Stone Arch Bridge in Minneapolis. She did it repeatedly and loudly. I finally said, “Ain’t that the f—ing truth?!?” loudly. She jumped, shut up, and fully failed to make eye contact with me.

This was when I realized that spooks are at heart cowards. They hate the light being shined on their dirty deeds and the methods they use to achieve them. Since they are as a whole in the service of multinational corporations, banks, and oligarchs and have declared war on the rest of us, it is imperative that both occur. Really, it is a matter of survival.

But any rational person undergoing the psychological harassment that I endured in New York and in Minneapolis after moving there would call it torture, torture-lite at best. The legal definition, you see, requires captivity. In this case, there was only the captivity that being drugged surreptitiously out of your mind, psychological herding, covert ops designed to get you fired and ruin your relationships provides. So while not technically torture in the legal sense, it is torture in the layman definition sense. It has the same purpose: To get the target to do something they would not normally do.

What is the motivation for the field agent overall, though? What are they thinking when they do this, not to members of Al Qaeda, but to their own fellow citizens?

Once again I present a Derren Brown experiment. Absolutely no hypnotism involved, merely human psychology. I suggest beginning at the 07:30 mark:

Derren Brown The Experiments – Remote Control.

Anonymity and group-think or mob-mentality lead to some seriously cruel results. Spooks enjoy anonymity, comes with the territory. They also have the implicit approval of their superiors to increase domestic terrorism in order to further secure more funding. Funding which goes partially to private firms and then gets kicked back to politicians who vehemently defend the organizations. Organizations which, by the way, do not have to disclose to whom and how much they contribute to political campaigns.

It really was a bit like what you see in the video except on occasion something positive would seem to happen. It was as if someone were trying to intentionally put me on an emotional roller coaster, perhaps with the intent of making me as socio- or psychopathic as possible; emotionally disturbed. Then with the further intent of driving me to violence, which would then be used to a} further justify more contracts, trampling of rights in general and b} to add LGBT to the list of people the Deep State can use bigotry to distract from their theft of wealth from and destruction of the middle class.

Except of course for me this was not just one hellish night followed by an apology and replacement of what was destroyed. This went on for over a year and Barack Obama, whom I assume to be stone-cold psychopath, has prevented anything being done about it at every turn with his war on whistleblowers. Separate what the man says from what he does, because they are rarely kin, and I think you see more of the same as we got from Bush and will get from the next POTUS.

Shifting gears, it has also came to my attention that there was a lot more to the so-called Ground Zero Mosque story than I would have guessed:

Matthew Phelan, “The Ground Zero Mosque Was an Inside Job,” Gawker/Black Bag, 11 September 2014:

You’ll note the involvement of the son of a man shot by a bag lady, allegedly a CIA drug smuggling money man. You’ll note the involvement of a FBI consultant. I was entirely unaware of any of this when I was doing work on the project in late 2009.

You’ll also see, if you click on the tax form, the Aspen address. Aspen is home to the Aspen Institute and it’s Aspen Strategy Group and is another of those spy-world-magnet places, where there are annual meetings of spies and muckity-mucks.

You may also recall I. ‘Scooter’ Libby’s “poem” to Judy Miller of the New York Times:

You went into jail in the summer. It is fall now. You will have stories to cover — Iraqi elections and suicide bombers, biological threats and the Iranian nuclear program. Out west, where you vacation, the aspens will already be turning. They turn in clusters, because their roots connect them. Come back to work — to life.

Tim Grieve, “Scooter Libby, Judy Miller and those turning aspens: What did Libby mean in his cryptic letter to Miller? She provides some clues,” Salon, 31 January 2007:

Between MKULTRA killers/targets, Aspen, Plamegate, the Cordoba House, and connections to not one but two agencies in the intelligence community, this is a meme hurricane. I don’t much know what to make of it except it does fit with some of those other clients I mention in the chapter linked at top of this post.

The only other things I’ll add is that this might not only serve the Republicans but the Democrats as well. Not that the Democrats really want peace, but that many who vote for them believe that they do, and that’s all that matters. The Ground Zero Mosque may have been an op to mobilize the bases of both main parties, and not just the Republicans.

But one should also note that this heavily implies the involvement of the intelligence community in elections. I would say that that is the biggest no-no for them, but there are so many no-nos to choose from, many of which we already know to have been violated, eg, CIA not only spying domestically but on the US Senate, torture, DoD spying on protestors, FBI’s parallel construction and entrapment ops, etc.

Just gets weirder and weirder and yet somehow clearer and clearer.

BBD – Psychics, Shysters, and Spies

First Disclaimer: There are some things I disagree with Richard Dawkins on. Primarily, this consists of the “New Atheists” being unable to come up with something better than Medieval religion did with regards to neo-Inquisitions and neo-Crusades with “national security” replacing “whose deity’s is bigger?” as the excuse given to the peasantry for raiding other countries. I expected better from biologists, mathematicians, physicists, etc.

Second Disclaimer: It is not my desire to convert or unconvert anyone. Your religion or lack thereof is your business. I do, however, want people to be more discerning about what power says and why; and power sometimes makes use of religion. But then see the first disclaimer because religious leaders aren’t the only ones getting used.

That said, I think we can again see how con artistry, in this case the phony psychics doing cold readings, has other applications with regards to psychology: That is, making it seem as though they are telling people something about themselves by using language that is sufficiently vague so that it can apply to anyone; sort of half an idea that they present in order to get the target to fill in the gaps, give it meaning, and sort of using what is more take than give on info. I’m mostly referring to the first eight minutes or so, though they come back to it later.

Richard Dawkins interviews Illusionist Derren Brown (Enemies of Reason Uncut Interviews)

The point, this is how the psychic makes a personal connection, or appears to, with their quarry. This is sort of also how politicians increase their appeal. They use words like ‘freedom’ and it is up to the potential voter to decide what it really means. A politician usually means either the ‘right’ to step on the rights of others or the rights of corporations to steal, in either case for the purpose of vacuuming up the wealth from the poor and middle class and giving it all to the oligarchs. It’s sort of like the last few rounds of Monopoly, you’ve had to mortgage yourself over and over just to stay in the game and give your remaining wealth to the owners of the properties on the edge of the board just before the Go square.

For example, Ron Paul polled very well among progressives early on during the 2008 election cycle in 2007. This was almost purely because of the reaction to Bush and their perception that their rights had been trampled and Paul’s use of the word Constitution over and over, perhaps because we already had an inkling about NSA spying and our loss of liberties and privacy. But is that what Ron Paul was really concerned with?

Now, Donald Trump says things like, “I’m gonna do so well with the military, its gonna blow your mind.” This says absolutely nothing and entirely leaves what that means up to the listener. It is, in fact, a kind of genius.

This, though, is merely the preamble to the real point of this post. I noted here and in Wicked Game that I believe that my religious conversion that occurred in 1989 was part of the overall experience that I have come to refer to as NKINTRA: the grandchild of MKULTRA where the efforts are aimed not at foreign countries but at the domestic population of the United States. Note again that though I set the first chapter of Wicked Game in 1988, my first probable encounter with the intelligence community was probably circa 1980, in high school. This is in retrospect, I didn’t consider any of this to be more than “normal life” until things became so strange that I had to reconsider various things from the past.

In 1987 or 1988, I was still living in the married housing section at my university. I was separated but not yet divorced. Somewhere down deep dealing with being gay and deeply in denial about it coupled with the failure of my marriage, I was depressed.

A friend, who really could be fun to hang around with, came over. It was really listening to my problems that set him off on re-embracing his parents’ lifelong Christian beliefs and attempt to get me to convert. I was torn between telling him to GTFO and being polite because he was polite about and as I said, sometimes a lot of fun.

There was a lull in the conversation. This was the point where I was running several ideas about how to end this gentle badgering without being rude.

Just then, a can sitting inside a garbage bag in the kitchen rolled across the floor. Then a second can rolled off in a different direction.

Then–I am not kidding–a third can rolled out in yet a third direction. The angle between them was fairly, but not perfectly, even. Inside the bag was also a milk jug, which of course had expanded as the bacteria inside gave off gases while feeding on the drops that remained.

This altered the course of the conversation and I agreed to pray with him. It did not, believe it or not, convert me. But it did lay the groundwork for what came later, the insanity at the Festival that I eventually, not having the ability to explain what I and others saw and experienced, chalked up to something supernatural.

It is not difficult to imagine why an intelligence agency would want to know how to do something like this. It makes people easier to control so long as you also have control of their religious leaders. Combine it with influence/control of their news and political leaders and you control most of what they see and hear, and therefore what they think and do.

These pseudo-conversions can also be the basis for creating cults, for example, that believe that Israel must be protected at any cost so that Jesus can come back and kill all the Jews, that their religious freedoms are threatened when forced to do their jobs, that the Constitution’s purpose was to endorse the Bible, divorce and multiple marriage is somehow okay to ignore scripturally but gay marriage isn’t, etc.

Not really what we should expect from government and its conjoined private twin Wall Street, is it? They are so very much into your private life; your well-being, not so much.

What’s Jared Got to do With Iraq?

Pretty much nothing. If there’s a lesson to take from the Jared situation, it is probably that power tends to corrupt. People start indulging their worst aspects when they think that they can get away with it. This applies to pretty much anyone with even a modicum of power. But it did remind me of a few things.

Before I get going on a tour of the covert horror show, why is what I’m going to cover important?

1} Barrett Brown would be covering something like this, and in a much better manner, were he not a political prisoner. That is what he is, stop making excuses for a giant machine filled with spooks who know how to manipulate people and the media.

2} We have another Bush running for POTUS. Really, are we not able to get enough after the Saving & Loan Scandal from 41 and the near complete financial meltdown from 43? Oh, right, it actually made a few people even wealthier, so screw the 99%. Banksters rule.

3} It involves indirectly another political prisoner, Matt DeHart.

4} We cannot seem to, in general, grasp that we have a few million spooks in this country alone, many of them in the private sector, and that there just isn’t enough for them to do in the category of things we actually expect them to do. Therefore, they cook up other things and provide illegal services to Wall Street and petty, vengeful, greedy politicians.

But it did remind me of UN weapons inspector Scott Ritter. I detailed what happened to two other NJSF interns, and what someone tried to do to me, in Wicked Game chapter 4 as well as what happened to Ritter and how it may relate to MKUTLRA subproject #109, Pharmacological Age. The chapter is long, but the Ritter section is at the end of the chapter, just before the notes.

What is the broader picture here? For that, we may have to look at the context.

First, there was the ‘Downing Plan.’ This was the result of a discussion between US and UK officials on how to garner support–and a legal basis–for invading Iraq. It included discussion of a false-flag-ish operation in which Iraq would be tricked into shooting down a plane upon which ‘UN’ would be painted on the side. While UK representatives opposed this proposal from their American cousins, one thing became clear: the Neoconservatives were very concerned with being prosecuted for war crimes. They wanted a solid legal basis for invading Iraq.

Note also that Ritter rejected the advances of Achmed Chalabi. Chalabi was the Pentagon’s favorite for replacing Saddam Hussein, a noted con artist and criminal, as well as very probably a double or triple agent working for Iran. Another thing that people don’t seem to grasp, many Joint Chiefs love instability because it provides opportunities for future military industrial complex profits down the road. They don’t want peace when they can fill their pockets forever on Permawar.

CIA to the neocons’ rescue. And on more than one occasion in all likelihood. Besides the character assassination against Scott Ritter, who as I noted in the chapter was literally explaining away the Bush administration’s WMD lies on CNN only to be cut off mid-sentence in order to go to Condaleeza Rice stating the exact opposite, there was Amerithrax. Jim Woolsey in particular. Jim Woolsey of later Booz Allen Hamilton, who also makes a couple of appearances in Wicked Game.

It appears that FBI investigated why CIA was attempting to frame Iraq for the Amerithrax attacks. An alleged document indicating the existence of this investigation was what Matt DeHart allegedly received from a member of Anonymous.

This should come as little surprise as FBI was investigating a lot of people who, not shitting you here, they thought were secret Muslims. This issued from politicians having ties to organizations that FBI thought also supported terrorism.

Of course Matt is up on charges completely unrelated to the investigation and instead something closer to what they got Ritter for. This is common tactic, even when the charges have no basis in reality, in order to dissuade support and to scare people about entering jail at all and therefore making them easier to coerce. See that chapter 4 again for field testing on American’s by the US government during and after the Bush 41 administration.

There are so many examples of kiddie porn among government employees, and so very few that resulted in prosecution and in some cases even firing, that one could only look at the Catholic Church or the British Government for a more corrupt system of cover-up. While I don’t want to see a theocracy, the Obama administration keeps making the case for some kind of morality within government. I swear, that man is the Koch’s best friend and a staunch GOPer when it comes to what he actually does as opposed to what he says.

History repeats itself again and again. Maybe it isn’t so much a flat circle as an ashtray.

BBD – Going With the Gut

“Yes, stand a little out of my sun.”
–Diogenes, in one of several attempts to tell the conqueror Alexander the Great politely to go f— himself, after being asked if there was anything he could do for the philosopher.

There are a few things on the backburner right now. One is a follow-up to the post about Jason Leopold uncovering that the Obama administration bases its actionable domestic intel on FOX News and warmongering think tanks in attempting to paint African-Americans as terrorists. Since then, there have been several new articles mentioning other think tanks doing similar, including one where a UK stinker suggests that conspiracy theorists may join ISIS. Between you and me, there’s a rumor going around that this guy likes to draw derogatory pictures of Mohammed in his spare time. But far be it from me to repeat gossip.

There is some overlap with this post regarding this overall phenomenon–think tanks make up reasons for more contracts, contracts get issued, money is flushed down the toilet and some of it makes its way back into the grubby hands of politicians–albeit only in the intended effect. I’ll explain at the end.

Though there were a few limited instances of weird mood, etc. after Plamegate, it wasn’t until Squidgate that, for example, my ex told my best friend behind my back that he was considering having me committed. I’ve detailed that in Wicked Game, even entitled a chapter regarding it and tried to explain the tortured logic of some emails and other actions I’d taken. Starting at about the middle or a little after of December 2009, my behavior altered somewhat dramatically.

I cannot place a date on when things went back to something resembling normal. This was and is more of a process than an event, and that came in spurts, setbacks, repeat. It’s something I’ve been reluctant to discuss, lest it invite a relapse.

Is it possible? Some background.


The MKULTRA draft goals memo dated 5 May 1955:

1. Substances which will promote illogical thinking and impulsiveness to the point where the recipient would be discredited in public.

5. Materials which will produce the signs and symptoms of recognized diseases in a reversible way so that they may be used for malingering, etc.

What is item 1 referring to? Seems pretty obvious. Character assassination of witnesses, whistleblowers, journalists, activists and others who might question or reveal the massive cash cow scam that NATSEC has become.

And item 5? The ability to harass and make bankrupt the same kinds of people by making them and their doctors believe that they have some disease or other.

Next, let’s discuss briefly Dr. E. Fuller Torrey. Torrey was quoted by the New York Times as describing Oscar Ortega-Hernandez as “classic schizophrenia” after the latter took some shots at the White House with a rifle some years back.

What Torrey neglected to mention was that he once worked at St. Elizabeth’s in Washington, DC, and that St E’s was once home to MKULTRA research. More recently, St. E’s was investigated by the Department of Justice for reports of violent behavior involving the patients there. A report was issued citing remedies for malpractice.

Further, Dr. T. forgot to mention that he subscribes to the theory that schizophrenia is not genetic, but biological in nature. That is, some substance or pathogen is responsible though susceptibility may involve some genetic factors.

Is this possible? Let’s see what some psych articles might tell us about it. You don’t have to click them, I’ll summarize the point.

Dale Archer MD, “Gut Bacteria Transplant: A New Treatment for Anxiety?” Psychology Today, 24 September 2013:

Emily Deans MD, “Schizophrenia and the Gut: Intestinal inflammation is linked to major mental illness,” Psychology Today, 21 September 2012:

The idea, working backwards, is that anxiety, depression, and even schizophrenia are related to neurochemical imbalances in the brain. In the latter case, there are opposing camps that state an over abundance of dopamine or serotonin are to blame.

But where do these chemicals come from? From the digestion process. Bacteria that aid digestion produce chemicals to the brain. Some varieties produce neurotransmitters and that may cause this chain reaction that ends up at emotional and/or psychological problems.

As I’ve been quite fond of pointing out, typically our brain chemistry determines our emotional state, and then we decide why that might be by looking around to see why. It’s the reverse of what we tend to think it is, at least under normal circumstances.

The suggestion is that severe trauma may trigger the dying off of certain bacteria and therefore the promotion of others that generate the chemicals. This may explain why, per the US Government’s own brainwashing document, isolation and trauma can result in hallucinations and other schizophreniclike symptoms. There is a hot debate right now, though neither Obama nor any other POTUS will end it despite flowery rhetoric, that solitary confinement can cause the same kinds of problems. We are literally creating mental illness and intentionally so in order to perpetuate the for-profit prison system on the macro level and to allow sadists to enjoy themselves on the micro one; just like the torture program.

But back to the point, are we all looking at the world with gut-bug-colored glasses? Has this mystery been solved to the point that this information can be used by spooks in order to achieve nefarious goals? Can you cause depression to the point that people like Gary Webb, Aaron Swartz, and Sandra Bland might succumb to it? This theory both competes and overlaps with the MKOFTEN study of pharma side effects one I’ve discussed in the past.

At any rate, I guess I know what it’s like to an extent. I’ve tried using several metaphors in the past, none of which really live up to the experience.

One was sort of like being trapped inside your own head and only able to communicate your thoughts via jokes, poetry, symbols, song lyrics–the words of others. The ability to form coherent trains of thought or to verbalize what is going on is crippled. See again item 1 above.

Another time I suggested dropping a cement block on your foot and attempting to do algebra while still in excruciating pain. While that gets close, I think it may not last long enough for the layman to get it.

Perhaps this new one may help. Move your workplace into a van or other vehicle. Drive to a location where there is a jackhammer in use. Try to get some work done only while the jackhammer is going. You might actually be able to get a few things done with practice. However, you will be incredibly exhausted due to the level of concentration required. You won’t be able to keep it up for long, and your work will suffer.

In any case, the how may go back to MKULTRA again and The CIA Manual of Trickery and Deception, also known as Mulholland’s Manual or the “Magic Manual” in the list of subprojects. The methods and means have likely improved since then.


But on to the next point regarding personal experience. I have also written about having been poisoned. I referred to it as “poison lite”: Not so serious that hospitalization was required, but I had to sleep sitting up for fear of drowning in my own vomit.

This began at the end of March of 2012 and continued for several weeks, after seeming to go away just long enough that I dared eat a full meal again. In any case, I wound up feeling as though my digestive tract had shut down. I started munching on two or three different probiotic products {these are for replenishing bacteria that aid in digestion} and yogurt {which also contain some of that}, and eventually felt more normal.

The side-effect: A chronic cough that is related to digestion. But as time has rolled on by, I haven’t had anything like what someone might refer to as episodes either.

Is it possible that the “poison” was doing just what I thought it was, and the purpose was to get rid of whatever dopamine- and/or serotonin-enhancing bacteria I may have been slipped in December of 2009? Was that horrible experience a purging of the bad gut bugs?

Now we get to the why. The timeline {if you are a target of any kind you should compile one} makes it clearer. While I was awaiting some fate or other in Minneapolis, my ex got married in November of 2011. As noted, it would have been nearly impossible to have repaired that relationship being schizo-lite, confused, and unable to verbalize my situation even if I had understood it. So they waited until it was clearly too late to start the “cure.”

The purpose, then, to make me realize what they had done in the hopes of driving me to violence. This in turn would be used so that some think tanks could claim that LGBTQetc are more likely to become terrorists than others. You’ll also note the likelihood of doing similarly with the mentally ill.

That is why. This is how.

This is really happening. As you can see, had I obliged them and done as they required–that is gone postal or whatever some place–an interesting question could be raised, though it wouldn’t be until 50 years from now. How much of this would have been my fault and how much the fault of those who harassed, drugged, etc. me? Where does “free will” end and human sockpuppetry begin?

You cannot entirely call it false flag in this case, can you? False flag implies party A performed an operation and party B was blamed for it. In this case, both party A and B are involved.

This is the world we live in now. One where ignorance is encouraged so that power can increase the value of its own knowledge. So that the NATSEC industry can create boogeymen upon which to profit on the one hand and to distract us and the media with on the other. It is times like these when I start to wonder if Wicked Game isn’t going to have a happy ending.

Wicked Game update

This time regarding my company’s work with/on the so-called Ground Zero Mosque.

BBD – The Missing Link? {Updated}

And it’s the wrong words that make you prick up your ears
When later alone

Several hours after making the previous post live, a possible piece of the Wicked Game puzzle just sort of popped into my head. The problem is it actually makes sense, could explain a great deal. But then…well, you’ll see. While I should not be punishing those very few times I may have been told the truth {you should see the ridiculous crap I don’t even bother posting about}, there’s just something so neat and convenient.

First, let me back up a little.

2004 and on: Plamegate online warrior in which I really did put forth some good counter-arguments to those coming out of the Cheney administration. It related to the invasion of Iraq, which I have always opposed. Even when Bill Maher reversed himself once {“only Bush could imagine a Middle East so different from the one we know” or words to that effect} or when he had the King of Pentagon Stenographers on himself, Bob Woodward, dancing around how the Vice President’s office was illegally going around Congress to give the opposition money and weapons in order to reduce the number of American casualties temporarily in an election year. Always opposed it.

Then there was the Wexler impeachment event. All of this likely due to CIA engaging its unwitting asset to get back at Cheney and the Pentagon for Plamegate and backing Achmed Chalabi as Iraq’s replacement for Saddam Hussein. Would provide plausible deniability and appear as a grassroots kind of movement in which I was just one of many.

Then, let’s say, Cheney’s sycophants inside CIA alert his people to who I am. What is the response? For…

DIA or CIA in 2007-2008 to use me to remind George Clooney of his year from hell during the shooting of Syriana. Yeah, might have been either agency and one imagines DIA has the same non-prosecution agreement with DoJ that CIA has. DIA actually makes some sense, since there’s a chance the movie had CIA backing to begin with. Not sure, but the point was to remind him that he didn’t want to do another piece criticizing the War on Terror and how the US backs torture regimes. At this point, I’m on the radar. So…

{Here’s where the new piece comes in.}

Erik Prince bribes ‘Balding’ to use his capacity as a Department of Homeland Security operative to target me at some point in late 2008. The problem, he needs to hang the op internally on something. He uses the Manning leaks and DoD obliges by setting the date of the initial dealings of Private Manning back to October 2009. The problem? The party-crasher at the Halloween Party in October and the garbage was stolen in November 2008. The timeline shoots that tenuous connection right out of the water.

The purpose, as I’ve noted before, to turn me into the Lois Lang to Jeremy Scahill’s Nick Deak. The Squidgate op is initiated once they are ready to partially cloud the real issue and to hit two or three birds with one stone.

Now, who is missing from this scenario? Who comes out smelling like a rose when it’s all about “Blame the Republicans”? I’ll give you a hint, it’s a political party. If I didn’t know better, I’d swear the Democrats want to be friends again. And with an election coming up.

I have several responses to that.

Remember my drive out of Minneapolis a few days after 11/11/11? Because I sure as hell do.

The rest of what I’m thinking is far less polite.

Of course nothing will ever come of any of those things I listed above. Cheney is untouchable. So is Prince, obviously…he’s back in the States and there’s no peep about any of the many charges that lead to him fleeing for some time to the UAE.

As for Balding, I expect to see Obama giving him medal any day now. At worst, he’ll be pushed out of DHS and wind up working as a contractor perhaps with a cushier training, sales, or desk job. Rewarded, as people always are in the US, for doing horrible things.